PERFECT HEROIN

It is a great suspicious on my FATE. yES! my fate, not fat. I used to be so lucky and do things so smooth all the while. I have langsung the no idea what had/has/have been happening to me, on myself.

Thursday night. I started my project assignments around 11.00 pm. I love to sleep during the whole afternoon while being a night-cat to complete my tasks.

I click on my TauFooFar devise, and open my word format..

TNS! no matter how hard I click, my document can't be openned.

I discover that the type of my files all become EXE instead of Microsoft Word.

another shout of TNS.

I thought it was just a minor problem. Asking Friends to help me on it, cause I am an idiot, and they are the experts. How hard to try... oso canot lar..

No choice, but just switch my computer off and get to my bed back.

During in the midnight, 12.00 am. Reply on my phone, whose friend called me..

I answered the phone and keep mumbering...

He blurred :" tell me what had happened first"... oops, I lupa to introduce my situation.

I talk talk talk non-stop as well as he..

He then appeared.. " I THINK IT IS A VIRUS LOR, OR YOU DID NOT SAVE YOUR FILE PROPERLY"

and I went..>

O.O ~~ O.O~~O.O~~O.O~~ O.O~~ WHAT THE FUCK!!! AN STUPID EXE VIRUS. this is really a serious matter~!!

and another friend help me to find solution on it till very late 4 am. Helping me to convert it.

No choice. have to wake up on friday and get to college to save my files..

If not I hv to re-do all almost 6000 over words...tmd

I rush to college.. and try to open.. But WTF i found is.. college's computers can open my file. But, I at home caNNot~~

i go save save safe safe save save safe safe~

And back it up at college's computer..

What happened to me.. I used to be very the super lucky. But, really bad lucks surrounding me.~

Any solutions for this please~ I want my LUCK back~@!@@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to all those help me in this..

Feon Ng
Jian Y.
Peng Hun (12.00 am)
Victor Sam (4.00 am)

I no care anymore, What the Fuck of those assignments.

There is no point asking someone to save you from the burning fire. No. Not the bomba men.

I am only able to cry cry myself, water it with my spilt ,*pooi pooi myself and get the fire out.. *shoo shoo

I went to Genting today (whole day) Just to buy a consider-cheap McDonald compare Genting's and the normal market one, to my brother who is staying up there.

"Hello! Ah-mi ah? You come Genting ah? Buy McDonald for us... (Start asking his colleague want to order what set)" And the total with 9 sets of McD. Since when we become part-timers for McD who only deliver McD from KL to Genting???... And, I don't think those feller will pay my brother back lor...He claimed and blamed that McD in Genting is unlike the market one.

The breezing mong-cha-cha wheather really cooled me.. spend a whole day in outdoor theme park. Re-Sit.. Re-Sit .. Re-Ride..Re-Ride on those roller coaster again and again...

I don't think you might have this chance when you get your self up there during peak season. The person incharged there really see me O.O ... "Again?"

I took the 360 degrees twice, and those chap-balang thriller rides N times. Coz, it is quite no-people actually and did not need long huge queu.. Just Line there..

1. Queu up

2. Sit on it... wait wait wait the roller coaster to warm up..

3. then.. Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.......Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

4. turn turn turn.....

5. Get down with that @@ look.

6. Queu up

7. Sit on it... wait wait wait the roller coaster to warm up..

*continuesly....

In this progress..Do you really have time and mood for your Feng Shui project? Global Trade and FDI? or Gucci and LV strategy?... I don't think you still recognise your father mother during u scream like hell..... "Aaaaaahhhhh....Aaaaaaahhhhhh!!" huh..=.=''

i totally forgot that I have some commited work to do. No matter at home or at work. You just ride on it and feel like want to die and that's it. Then all your stress and pressure will come to an end. But, only a short moment for you to dyeing your mind.

Have Fun today , cause no long queu and really did exersice when I was cycling the boat.

So what the fuck you want to worry about the work. Sometimes, just be like a city people. Really stress but ready to release. Get stress.. release.. That's your life's roller coaster..

狮子魔女到高高去散心..想要把一切都喊掉..可是..散了个脑震荡.. @.@.. 晕~

I wan to SHOUT!

I have no idea at all. My brain stuck. I am feeling that I kena bomoh-ed by someone. I never really used to act and be like this before. I have been so suey these days. That, I really really did not experienced these before. My luck changed? ggrr~~~..

1. I have no idea why I spent my money so fast just like a switch on the pipe.. wait.. 2 seconds.. and gone few thousand. And, it is not the GFC's fault. I use to be very stingy stingy like hell. But, I can spent it just one blink.. *blink.. and all gone.
2. I broke up just not I expected earlier and it comes so sudden. It was a shock that I never forget. It was a roller coaster.. Happy.> Sad.>Happy.>Sad.. Ended with faint faint.. blur eyes.
3. A huge quarell situation among. Me, My Father, My mother.
4. My mother pressed me to work for house's expenses which I don't think I am now to take this responsibility.
5. Huge Fight With my dad cause his fault did not inform me that he was waiting outside the college gate. And, huge argument with him deal with his new handphone.
6. Broke my lovely clinnelle mirror
7. Miss the calls from cari survey.. my RM80 gone (Can u imagine that they call twice, and, U missed twice!!)
8. I dropped my monokoro boo's handphone cover.
9. I dropped my lovely Sunny pink doll.. Qing tian wawa.. I really miss it.
10. The rejection from the centre. HAVE to wait
11. YY jie~ No call me
12. Fell down dono how many times or knock to the wall. Look like those tiny ghost keep kacau u.
13. I lost my pictures which I saved! GonE!!!.. ggrrr~!
14. I lost the documents which I have forgotten to save...ggrrr~!
15. Waste three days three nights to do questionnaires still got mistakes...ggrrr~!
16. Still got no Idea for the CGG. I really die die go die 2000 words.
17. Not yet start Strategy
18. Deleted Some useful msges.
19. My computer is getting more lausy and lausy
20. Feel so headache and tired all the while even though I am just awake from sleep.

Very Sien... really bad luck... Solution please!!

What the FCUK of student's life

I felt terrifically got shock of what one told me that I should be active in joining any of gathering and gatherings now. So sorry to tell out to the public I don't think a gethering will be so meaningful as you think.

A gathering might be very meaningfull for anyone,include me as well. But, no point wasting my energy and money to attend and social what might not be meaningful currently. Why just we go gathering at Mamak Stall and chat whole night. That considered as gathering as well. Group work no gathering meh? Everyday come to class see each other still want to gather for what.

Technology so useful nowadays, why not stay home and have a chat room and can do so many things at the same time. Spending money, out to supper and meet each other and talk cock do not mean it must be happened so often. Why not during free time? Why not follow the mood? Why other people so busying at life but you just busying calling all out to yam cha..?

Don't tell me to have a farewell gathering at this moment, cause *touch wood, I might not know that I am so the lucky to graduate from this course. Can't it be end of the semester? Or, just meet in the annual dinner also consider a gathering..

I also the one who not see my friends all, but, at least we still can chat online and really have time to come out. But, not that often. It really stupid that spending RM20 to have gathering at a high end hotel. I can eat RM2 sushi king with that amount full full.. Why not go sushi King gather then? A small group gang could be lar..

The most shockness thing is, a mentor/lecturer gives fully support on students to have this kind of gathering. Even, if you go for gather now they no need teach. Imagine if the whole class gone for gathering during class hour.. It is definitely not what I want to see.. O.O

Of course, we must enjoy our life during student life time. But, also take conscious to be prepared in the working life as well. it will be very stupid that one day your mom will come and tell you.. "Eh, you have to enjoy now lar, go shopping shopping lar, go Wet lar, don't so much study lar...enjoy your student life. "

O.O (I don't thInk my mom so guud)

I Am not those keen keen and SOo enthusiastic in these GATHERINGS stuff... waste money in this downturn economy, waste time which I can do many things during it.. bla bla bla...

KLCC's Fish Tank

This post contain 18sx material.. (avoid scrolling down, i put it last last.)

REGISTER drJOB.

You know what I am thinking now of those stupid hectic project and assignments.. I really will jump lor.. I say true one.. I sure will jump one.. Remember My name if i Jumped one day. And, no one follow me jump. Just put a bright name of mine.. "Memorable spookygrace the baroque witch" will be.




No point with that Ah Lian Look with Ah Lian attire, I really scared the shark will approach.



Me with White tiger.. (You do not know that KLCC's stuff is so damn expensive, it is not a real white tiger, and it costs like.. "real-tiger")



See fish fish surrounding behind me...


dng* dng* dng* dng* (shark-coming anthem) call it Anthem.. wakakkakaka..




these are my kai-zai, and kai-lui. They got name lor..

THEy are.. Do, Re, M,i Fa, So, La, Ti, DO, RE, MI,........etc...octaves.









turtle..... with pig nose..... I think it is more like a "Water-Fish"









Chipmunks!!! Chipmunks!!!!

this is Alvin



This is Simon.... Theodor still sleeping.. don't ka-jiao.




it reminds me Jurassic park...

it tastes yummy!!!!

"Get me Out from here"

Pao pAo face.. it looks so oo Potatoe.. >.<

Looking down...

Looking up...

I dropped it.. I miss it.. >.<>qing tian wawa

this is what i discovered in Kinokurnia.. Wonder why this on shelve... wahahahaha..

I am Jammed

I got so long time no blog, just purely because this blog does not make myself having mood on.. erm.. making money. ooi.. Don't view me as so materialistic...... yes I am..

I am damn 9 busy... arrghh~! I got no mood.. no mood...no mood.. and i got so many things to tell.

First of all.. My Parents:

Aiya, they are always the both who make me crazy all time just because of little money. Father is like that, and, my Mom is like that. Who knows that one day, I will got another tumor inside my head and my butt. Just because I am so stressing of their attitudes.

My mom araised this: "You better go and find piano work har, and pay for all the electrical bills and all those junk expenses."

Me: "what??? o.O"

Don't view me that I am so disrespect to my mom and so ignore and annoy her. I don't think I have to work to pay for all the bills at this moment. And, she yelled that she is now poor and economic is bad and it is affecting her daily revenues. Shut Up lor~ She use to spend like a fat rich lady all the while, and lending out so much to her siblings and so care of her siblings. Why not ask her siblings to help her to pay, and ask me pay har?(Ok, seems I am the one who living in this room, no care) ... My brother is too innocent at this point that he does not know anything that is happening among us, rather be innocent lar.

She used to give so big angpau during the wedding ceremony and to show off how ABLE her family can be (I no care lor, she wan to show off to others that her siblings are so well so good).

She used to buy so sparkling gold neckless to her nephew during his wedding just to show off that actually her nephew is ABLE (I really dono he able what..). She used to buy her son and so pampered him and bought him a RM3000++ DELL laptop.

Eh, you got all the ABLE to buy all those things, and, you are now telling me that you are UNABLE to pay for the bills. Honestly, from young till now, you really spent little on me. And I dare admit that my father spent on me more than you, I don't think you can be so poor lor..

Papa work salary is lesser and more lesser than you so much, why he can able to save and you can't. You so like to care and give things to your siblings, why not you show off your pity face infront of them and see how am I and papa torture you ah? and ask them to care you back lar.. One my father is damn stingy, One my Mom is damn the not stingy. How to create a balance.. ??

I can say that whatever happened to both of you I am dare to do whatever things to overcome. No matter what. You want pay bill? I go borrow to pay it. If no money, why not we just starve and eat poridge all the while, why must we spend so much on eating in high-end restaurant. If you poor, just admit that you are poor lar... Why must to show off that you are ABLE meh.

I don't think we need to rely on others and they rely on us. Honest, we are one family and we have our own life, why must we depend on others so much. We no car then no car lar, why must grab others people car to claim and to show off that car is actually yours. We want to go to that destination then we walk with our own ability, not to borrow others leg and claim that is a grant.

I less depend on you both since young, I like to work part-time and I do like money. The problem is :vehicles transport is my problem. If it has a better service of buses and public transports, I would absolutely go work for it. Because, everyone likes money especially during this downing economy. I don't think I am not working to pay bills already proven that I am a bad daughter. I worked for years with same job and same environment, I did the best in work and study, I just trying to do my best for myself and my family. I am not to wreck lor..

You think I am so ABLE. I am now telling you that I am very Unable to pay to you guys. I talked to papa that he wanted me to pay him back all my education fees. Honestly, I can pay, then I pay lar.. If can't...tHEN I not to pay. Since, you raised me till degree level . I admit that I am not satisfy with that. So, I still have lots to save, save for my master, save for my piano, save for my car installment and also planning to buy houses and study overseas and travel. I am too ambitious to create my own life. I just don't wanna starve to pay both of you. That's it. I think this is the best ever. Eh, I no ask u give me money you steal laugh lar. still wan me pay ah.. =P

WITH THIS, I HAVE JAMMED IN MY ASSIGNMENT.. this is not a good Feng Shui at all (as what I am doing my dissertation topic)

SECONDly... A BROKEN HEARTS

Yes, we broke. And I aware that I did not do my best on this. I surrender that I am the failure and loser in this stupid game. Who knows one day that I am the stupid idiot and sooi people who overcome this situation.

And, sometimes you think all the while is good, nothing and having fun. And the one that you are having fun with, used to shoot you infront of your forehead then die. Bad luck was surrounding me that time.

I can feel a bad "Chi" there. Symptoms like, I broke my lovely clinelle mirror sudenly, My hair drops terribly, and nightmares all day and night. That already temper my heat and making a bad Chi internally and externally. Just feel that I deserve back what kind of bad things that I have done all the while, and this is the karma and payback.

But, it happens too soon. And, one shot give you one headache. 人一衰起来.还真的衰到贴地.

I was not a good girlfriend to you. But, you claimed that is your problem and not mine. Honestly, the problem belongs to both of us or even 3,4,5..persons. There is always a relation to create a problem. I no suka suka fun fun to go and create a problem for myself and suffer lor.

You deny to tell yours but only telling you not love me anymore. I am to tell that I really sorry and sorry to be the person who take part in this problem. My problem is, I am too outrange from what others are doing. I love to be alone all the while and refuse to speak all the while and yet not knowing the situation of being together (because I thought together is like that).

I am living in my own world and failed to have long term partner. I am too use my own style and that has created a force in the relationship. You might feel stress and thus this leads to your problem. And the problem arised.

I sad myself, happy myself and take less concerns on others. However, initially, me and you just want to have fun, the results seem not the outcome that we both wanted. Or, there are other factors that influenced the outcome as well.

I admit that I am really timid. I was to find a long-no-see friend to be in a relationship instead of a fresh stranger. As I thought I'll know you well. And that is the point I only dare to be with the person that I know long time and at the same time I had fallen love on you. The result is not I wanted to be, and it comes to an end.

Do things how hard I refuse to give up, no matter what, and I believe a solution that can tie it up. However, will the one that you would like to share your solution with, will able to solve the problem with you together? No, there are different kind of people, and human beings. Different ranges, status and cognitive thinking.

I am sorry that what I did to you. Cause I only felt the love that I long time no experienced it when I was being with you. And I really thought that you felt the way too. From the memories that you smile, hold my hands and happy together was just a lie. I never thought that you are forced to hold my hands and like me, thus make you suffer, I am so sorry. I am so regret and feel dissapointed on myself that I did not aware it.

You treated me a lot all during the moments and make me happy all the while, I thought and really thought. But, what I thought is a NOT. That you telling me that you no love me.. no more..

I realise that nothing will be perfect if you really want it to be. Sometimes, you are getting too confused and you are the one who-self to ruin it up. Perfect imperfect. It is always a balance in life, and no perfect not imperfect. There is only a major or minor.

Learning a lesson in this game proven that I am developing in the sense of caring and loving others. Of course taking caution actions. I love to love. What about others?

No matter, I did a huge mistake on this. I have no guarantee that I might do it again. Because of you, I try my best not to let anyone take in my place anymore. Cause, it really hurts. Crying consumes a lot of energy and it affect my dissertation indirectly. I am not dare to step further out of my own world anymore.

i REALLy got jammed in my work. Hahaha... do you imagine that I only left a little time to finish it. 3 though though assignments?? Can I choose to faint..?? NOW???

>.<

No.. No choice...You have to cheer up no matter how bad luck you are in now.. *sorb sorb


P/S: No matter how hardworking and so given-heart on doing your things. The result might be unexpectable and contingence. You have your responsible to face and to accept whatever come to you. Not to blame others but yourself.