Disasters zz

Ignoring the blogging thing recently. Guessing why? assignments lor.... Still one more 5000+5000 words to go. with somemore the exams. With somemore the " Rapourt" setting up the the relationships with those lecturers. For what? Supervision and guidance for the dissertation lor....

Other than that, life of having a job and study at the same right time. It just GGGGRRR frustrate!! I have no oppose of working the task or the routine boring work. But i just do feel working with whole bunch of idiots. eh~ It doesn't mean that i very clever and smart. buT at the situation, i think i am mature, wise and critical to handle any single issue that happened when it is the culture practise by the group. Especially when it hits on me, I think I am now very mature and "adultly" to face all these.

Stop telling me that i have no experience in working and building such stupid relationships with bosses, handling customers and even gossip at back. I don't think its my responsible to do that. In nowadays, I don't think the new generation's employees are very used as a tool for bosses, I don't think ammending, altering the report communication to customers will always be lie to them.

Dont tell me :"I can tell lie to the customers", Don't tell me:" You dono how to handle one lar, sometimes you cannot say the name one, u have to be hidden"

I don't do these idiots-will-do-tactic, and I don't do idiots-gossip-others. Just wanna tell you, other than the education and related working experience in certain field. My actuall working experience started when I was 13 year-old. I don't think I am idiot enough to know what the hell you guys are doing.

as I said, I always do not regret that I am educated, and highly, quality educated. And I appreciate it. And yes, I learn a lot, study a lot, educated a lot. And worth, qualified to be lan-c more 100000% than you do. You got chance to Lan-C meh.

I have no choice to working with all those idiots in just a retail type small firm. In the sense of, not the quality and quantity that they are working, I do respect and appreciate, somemore amaze, admire them to work such effort. But I still do think it is idiot enough because of the idiot situation.

First of all, it is just a purely played by those family members. Almost all siblings in a family take part and adhere. Supportive huh?

Imagine a family business. Yes, that Is what I m working to. (I also one of the family of this idiot bunch of people, but, emphasize that I am polar different than them.

playing politics is just super fun. One of the operation worker just like to play with all the gamblings game, no matter in what.. ToTo Magnum 4d.. As well as the other sisters-sisters of them. I have no choice just to listen to them screaming, laughing, yelling, at those numbers quite almost for everyday. Disappear for buying those numbers, calling phone and talking loud just talking those numbers. however, she is not the rich one, she thinks that she is wise and lucky enough to win and become a millionare one day. And she thinks all her kids are so independent and even spend for her. And yet, she can be free, and not worrying.. IDIOT!

Another sister, as a house wives. Yes, she is very careness to all, include all of us. As well as her kids. And you can imagine that her kids are all so pampered. Just feeling like feeding them milk untill the 30 year old. She just play an important role to play politics as well as the TOTO sister. She likes to talk about other as well, and trying impose some moral education to us. What we should do ,asking me when I'll get a boy one day. Critically comment on me that i having imbalance of mindness and need to seek a psycho... What do you think? IDIOT!! Without any discriminate and i claim that I am not. She brings over her kids everyday to the working place, completing the homeworks, but the very active one. Shouting, Playing, and very noisy.

Everyone there are just idiotly do not aware it is a working environment. Businesses have to run, handling calls, hanlding many situations. Sometimes, it doesn't mean that you can work mean that can work. Mentally, emotionally, and physically of course do have to take part in your working situation..

Am I idiot enough to work in this? I don't think so. I have my own principle. Of. Working just for money and relevant working experience..

Don't tell me that these adultls eat salt more than I eat rice.. But. The salt already damage their brain badly and even their attitude..

class now bye!

LOU MOU, you are too underestimate me..

I don't think without my involvement, you and your siblings can well gossip about me. And I don't think the culture that you practising can definitely affect me and we the Leo's. I don't think being to be keeping quite you got a chance to talk more. Don't highly expect that you yourself and you siblings are so well in influencing. Not me, Not Voon Hoe, Not papa.

I can do whatever to stand on my side to protect my families, sorry, not yours. I am not a good person to your family. Don't ever think now, that your single words can influence me. I never listen to you, and, because I am educated to being able to control not too-easy-to-get-influence.

Don't ever think you can find such benefits that belongs to Leo's. You think it is jus a lunch or dinner that we can be happy with. You think, you are just borrow few hundreds or one thousand. You think all those are hell money though? Don't ever make money to be so funny. Its not. You just keep spending on your families, but, please be specific. We are not willing as you. We are not willing to share this complication. And, importantly, be realistic.

If papa did not raise this up, I think he is the moron till now still be. If I never talk to him, he thinks I am the one who play fool. Point, lending money to your siblings to do business? Huh? what about black and white statement. I don't think nowadays I should be such truthful to your siblings.

Where is Black and White?

You think it is just few hundred huh? It is the money that papa keep it by working with his blood! He planned to retire with it, or, spending my education and Voon Hoe's education! What about your children??? STUPID MORON MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

your two kids no money no car!!! Having full of problems to pay fees and expenditure, problems of having just a lunch! You willing to spend such much money to your brothers' business, keep on investing into it with nothing, giving all your cars to your siblings. Just to show off!!!!!!!!!!!

The worst is lending money without any black and white to your siblings? You never thought of you or papa might die one day? WHAT If they not gonna return it? The Sepang's house is still under your brother's name? When to strike it, when to replace it???

Don't simply voice to others that your "lou gong hou yau loi" !! It consists blood, and you this wicked woman asking for more and more! He wants to do what is his business ! Don't simply ask him to take out some cash just to borrow your all brothers. Just I don't believe and trust your brothers and don't trust you too.

I know that even me n bratha sleeping on the street without food, you are still caring your brothers too, and even your nephews. You yourself borrow money to them is none-of-our business, don't dare to involve us~!

You think people are only show respectation by just calling "uncles and aunties"? "Good morning or Good afternoon?" Sorry, I don't practise this at all. Please show your respectation during you are actioning. It is just hatious. Show your respectation to "we" too.. and yourself, it is just disgracing.

what if someone calls me : "jie jie! ! Good morning" afterthat, does it means he/she can simply open up my fridge to eat my ice-cream? Golek over my bed? switch On my computer which is too personal to me? play my piano with your dirty,smelly,wet fingers? It is not what I practise Sorry!

I know you are regreting just because I know a lot...

I think I am not having many fails though**

sorry for being so outdate.. quite a bit of sorrow when i saw my status besides there.. (Avoid to see it).

Yesterday I dreamt a lot of mice and rats around my here. They are gathered, all grey in colour. One of it hanging itself on the stick that I use to hang my clothes last time. All so cohesive, they are like waiting for something. Then.

I dreamt my house's window has opened not very wide, when I aware of it, i quickly close it. So prompt. Haha.. that's lucky, they unable to go in ..

I jus dreamt a lot of them gathering, just like having their party, going elsewhere, anywhere through the drain. But, I don't think they are dirty, they are quite clean. I dreamt then, I ride on a car, may be I am driving or not? But I remember the car moved, but, only me myself in the car, and I sitting on the driver sit. Just assume that I drive. I drive very fast, ..

All rats chasing over my car, I kept running though.. with my car .. tHEY ARE chasing.. many of them..

OK, I think the dream ends here, I continue to dream another person, I think I already long time no meet. He is my brother's "kai jie fu". Still remember he is an insurance agent. Ok, I have no point why I dream it. ... .. .. .. Saw many people around there, my mother ask me to call someone..

I saw the insurance agent with a "dou san " hairstyle sitting on a big chair. I am ordered to call him "Mr. CEO"..

o.o

WEIRD..

when I came to explain about the rats thing..

It has implication of:

Dreaming many rats at once or around you meaning you could face a lot+many times of failures. And, you should prepare to face it though...

However, I think I'm not.

Lets continue it during my breaktime. Having class now..

Happy blogging and assignmenting.

confusing. complicating. deciding. can't sleep...piano teaching freak.

today I jus went to an interview in Endah Parade. After the whole travel+vomit+faint in my papa's van. I reached there by very fortunate-finding-a-car park. It feels very weird that I went there with my father but not my mom. We used to shop very carzy with my mom and we are very KNOW-HOW the place is.. It is jus like our second home.. =P.

On the way to the centre.. suddenly the girl call me.. "Our principal need you bring 3 songs and play for her.." O.O i came out liao, how I gonna bring it?

seeing the principal.. She jus gave me a lecture in teaching in her centre, with all the regulations that employees have to fulfill and what a teacher should do. After it, she told me that she hires me if I able to fulfill all regulations. She tests my passion in teaching by giving me a class on Monday. If I can go, I can't stop by that. If I can't go, just bye bye.

Actually I also very pity those centre's principals, our teachers just have to teach.

First first, she is not intend and not impressed with my certs that i got. Yala, my grade oni got 5 and 8.. So?SO!! How ! Just tell me I'm in or out lar..!

Ok, the thing is not the qualification that the person has. I hope many employers do consider other facts too. Sometimes it might be very hard and difficult to find a music teacher, that not anyone can play with the skills. Sometimes it will be very easy that you are really into this field. It depends on the centre that famous or not.

the thing is.. The Rules..That really freakin me out. I can't change my time table simply but have to follow what the students do. It is 100% unlike my piano teacher. That she likes to change it from Monday to Sunday, but I jus plainly pity her that time she was just a student. =.=""



She even test my passion on Monday, by just teaching one student in a month. Consider averagely that you have 2-4 students in 2 months. Maybe you just get around RM100 per month. OMG how to survive with that?? but consider secondly the time, maybe you just have to teach for 2 hours in a day. Yeah. It is worth.. However, the regulations restrict me by not participate in any other centres besides working for them. Will it worth anyway?

Now, my strategy will be the long-run or the short-term. I do believe that I can make money in long-run. But in short-run maybe I just can get that RM30 per month. But I can't say that in future 3 months.

Other than that, I just have to look for another centre. Maybe it is only 2 students for me to teach, but if there is no-strict-rules to tie me up. Maybe I can be more freedom to teach happily, and maybe that will be my motivation too. But the job does not appear to me that kind of fast.



so there are two choices. I have to teach one year in commitment by follow all the rules such as wearing formal to classes, cannot change time simply, cannot participate in any company besides that. The rules will mess me up, in addition, I really do not know what my final year will going on. I know the rules stated is to build an image for the school, and to be honest, the school is quite famous to me, and the principal now considering hiring me, I have to curi-ketawa by the time..

Secondly will be, I go for another centre to give another try, I think I can able to find a very lease-lease-no-rules centre, at the same time that I can take care of my final freakin year. But it might be taking long time for me to search for it.. And it won't be a better location anyway. And I am now thinking of a new environment instead of the tied-up rules.

and there are pros cons in it. I can just teach in a lauyar centre but I got no rules with it that I can teach happily and have my freedom to study my final year. OR, i am now having a chance to teach in a famous school but I might be lose my freedom and I have to be commited.

Furthermore, the rate and commision for my income are all the same. And I have to correct that what other people told me that teaching piano can be a millionare.. "SIAPA TU?? WHO SAYS TEACHING PIANO CAN EARN MANY MUCHY MONEY ONE??""

at this moment, what I interested in is performing compare to teaching where I just need to get a licsence. I teach because of my mom was so annoying that forcing me to find a centre to teach teach teach and with that I can release some burden to my father. I have to correct it that "you think with that I can earn many money meh?>!" i not even effort to pay LRT and prepaid lar.!


Further consideration, discussion with my parents is needed.. to work.. or not to work"""

Finding jus a music teacher job ain't easy

It is damn difficult than what I think. But I really want a job. Barriers over round me. I know I just only have a 5th and 8th. But I really do interest in teaching. I tought students too, consider as experience. Give me a job, I jus want a job.

Besides after finished the entire studies, at this moment without enough fees for my diploma. I just want a related job in order, my piano playing will not end at this moment. At the same time of teaching, at least I can still continue to play with the students based on my own experience on playing classical to pop songs, concerto to sonatina to jazz.. and how to handle examinations.

That's how fun it will be..

of course, there is no free lunch, i need pay...

first call..> Actually, our centre need a Diploma's teacher. (How come? a not very famous centre also need a diploma????)

second call..> Oh, we can't answer you wor, you hav to come here yourself to fill the form first, and wait for the reply.. "thank you, bye bye"

Third call...> My principal say hor, you photostate your IC and cert hor.. then come here fill form.. "Ok ler, I'll come during weekends"

Fourth call..> Oh. we don't need any teachers now wor, leave your contact we will call you if we need teachers.."OK"

Really demotivating me to continue my call.. Flip through the entire yellow pages also no use.. (Oops.. yar.. hehe.. I use yellow pages to find music centres.. hehe..am I too brilliant??)

Obviously, all of the calls FAILED! I still have to wait wait wait for a right time to deal with this job.

Looking for a promoter job and part time sales is dmn easy (I can just walk by shops in midvalley and pyramid and i can get one.. erm.. maybe not only one..)

I just have to use one hour to call by looking at the newspaper I can get one..

But looking for a piano teacher job..you have to wait wait wait.. for their reply.. !!!!! If they no reply within three days. Means the job DIEs! still looking it.. sigh~

it really has to depend on luck.. Wish me luck in this beginning of new year. I really hope I can get one... By tomorrow....~~~

I AM SICK~ REALLY SICK

Hard to accept it, am i allowed to cry out loud. ?? What wrong things that i've done? So unexpected and sudden. Can it happened to me? Come on.. Jus 20 years old.. cry~~ and i was not awared~

I have to take out a water tumour around my ovari.. next tuesday, hospital (hate it)..

i keep on vomiting.. fever lsat 2 days, i went to doctor. He used to press my stomach...

"r u pregnant?" he asked..

O.O "NNNOOO!!!~~~".. mY mom was like.. "WHAT??" SHE STILL A STUDENT HOW COME?"

Doc: "Student oso can pregnant one.. " =.=""

what lar Fuck.. "I'm still a virgin, period still coming.. ok"

He used the baby-thing to scan.. And found a big tumour around ovari.. 6cm

I was crying like hell.. "WHAT THE HELL IS THAT INSIDE MY BODY!!!!!!!"

afta settle all things, rush back take medi card and rush to hospital. That time, i really dono what to think, is it a bad or good tumour? What if it is bad? Good? CRY~ What if, i really sick, what if... CRY~~

why this kind of thing happen to me, but not kena the first prize of lottery.

Somemore, got assignments and lotsa presentation. I have to finish all first. I was yelling.. "OMG, OMG , OMG" a tumour~!!!

After seeing the doctor in hospital, he told it is not a cancer, and it is very common happen to young age girl ( I think i'll be the youngest range one). booked for the operation.. And i still scare like hell. No mood to eat, sleep, stand, walk.. Keep on thinking that there is one thing inside my body, want to get it out, but have to go through the surgery process!

Scary, scary, really spooky~~!! CRY!!!!

THE doc says he will cut big line in my stomach, cause it is quite a big tumour, "OH NO~~!" I really scare scare scare, but i have to pretend like nothing. cAuse i don't wanna see my parents crying.. Once i see them cry, I'll totally hurt for that.. I want to be strong, can I? strong strong..

really afraid for that operation..

still wonder why this kinda thing happen,,.. y~~ y~~ ???? I really afraid it will cause any bad things in my future. But the doctor already told, it will be lesser chance to get pregnant.. CRY~~!!!!

Have to get ready everything to face it!!

Another News from YOUR country's UPM.

Great, I sure you guys watched this before. I gonna say something here. *cough cough.First of all, long time no blog, hi~everyone, and long time no see. Sob~~Sob.. really hate colleging days..

I really do not know what's going on in this UPM, fortunately, I am not one of this U's student, get rid of this kind of thing. Is this the education level that Malaysia goes? It is quite funny to hear this. Because of those protesting students and that fucking guard (gate one I think). I am truly amazed by those students that their bravo to protest, bravo to speak loud, and their bravo to record it down. However, you don't need to be soO "active" when such problems come to you, just call the police and report to the head of the school. I believe every school got their own system right. And wait for their explanation. Or just call the media...



Another thing that makes me funny, anyone has their right on rampas other people belongings?. Now, come on, we are no longer secondary students, do we need to practise what is secondary doing? like "Liquid paper (blango lar..) are not allowed in school." So, we have to use bloood to erase is it?? ..

Anyway, this rampasing I think they have a dark scene behind.

"acknowledgment that they have confiscated a student's laptop computer, MP4 player, pendrive, mobile phone, leaflets and documents.The student whose belongings were confiscated is a member of the 'anti-establishment' camp and the incident is believed to be related to the upcoming campus elections."

Election again, *sigh... which means, when every election comes, then the staff have their right on rampas belongings of students lar? Perhaps, other students also can able to rampas other students things lor.. then I rampas you, you rampas me.

Or it maybe does not relate to any election bla bla....

Another hypothesis..

Maybe they going to celebrate the raya, therefore, you know lar.. What to do? Income so little, just grab things from students lor.. *erm.... We are not steal their things, we are the staff her lor, and we have our right to confiscate their belonging ... Waha.. this raya, no scare no money ler.. (*cough, that's everyone thinks of, when celebration come, no money, and you will see a lot people will starting to be super-duper hardworking, it is normal lar, our practise culture mar..)

If even a staff have rights on rampas-ing things, such as Laptop, Mp3... etc., according to the youtube's clip. Why didn't the staff just tell those students what are the reasons and rights to confiscate their belonging, Why CAN'T HE TELLS OUT LOUD???. Instead of acting coward and hiding inside the car. When the police arrived, why not open discussion??? Why have to squiz into that unconfartable room (don't tell me that's where students stay O.O~)??

Perhaps, they are discussing "saya mau tolong boleh~ tapi macam mana" topic in that room. I saw few male malays sitting infront that door, with his legs own his chair, relaxing.. OI~ do you know they are recording, and your pose gonna be seen by the whole world??~!!! Act wise a bit lar~ can!

It is so embarrased to you UPM, why can't students study in a comfort way? The guard is worse than my doggies.. Come one! you are only a GUARD !!!

This shows those students are not sleeping during their class, especially, when it comes to the chapter of "HUMAN RIGHTS"... =)

Arrgg ~~!!!

Few more days to go, guess what?? AAARRGGG~~!!

School open on next Monday, *haizz, have to begin the stupid damn fucking boring time again. Like now, everyday, stucking myself at home, TVing, and Computering have so much fun. And somemore can sleep untill late late, then late late midnight oni sleep. SoOo enjoy. Thinking going to have fucking harsh life in college and assignments.. aarrgghh~~ My brain will explode ~~

And even don't have free time to waste ~~ *haizz

have to study study~~ reserach research~~again again.. ~~

No bring me Down!

struggle one whole midnight and totally think maybe my parents owe me before and now is their pay-back time. (great imagination), There is no point that they can even blame me that I have had used their money, so if like that, Why you guys give birth on me then.

What all you know is just "I had spent their money a lot".. which because I go to private college, and totally idiotly listen whatever thing that your stupid friend tell you. But, what I tell you are always wrong, what you friends tell you are always right. And your replies are always..

"BECAUSE I eat salt MORE THAN YOU EAT RICE"....

I think this is not only happened to me, I think all kids experienced this before that when their parents lose in the "children-parent-debate-game", and parents finally do not know still have what point to talk..they will always say..

"you have to listen to parents, because we eat salt more than you eat rice, so, parent's decision is always right, so you just have to follow what I say, and this is for your own good!!!"

Harlo! I thought the world now is developing and going to be more democratic, although the world is changing, the parents now are still very in the old fashion century....TELL YOU WHAT!!!

"YOU EAT SALT MORE THAN I EAT RICE IS IT?, OK! I DO NOT ADMIT THAT I HATE SALT AND LOVE RICE, WHEN YOU INCREASE of taking SALT, CAREFULL OF HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE OK! THAT WILL CAUSE AN EXPLODE IN YOUR BODY! ... NOW! YOU THINK HAVING MORE SALT IS GOOD LAR! IS BETTER THAN I EAT RICE LAR..PEOPLE WHO EAT MORE SALT IS CLEVER THAN EAT RICE ONE LAR!....what a shit nonsense of "eat salt more than you eat rice.."

What I have to say is, parents are not always right, they should listen to young kids nowadays, although you are a bit more experience, and please don't ever give nonsense reason+excuse like "eat salt more than you eat rice"..! Aunties Uncles! that one OUT already liao, think a new one can?! Nowadays, doesn't mean you got a lot of experience means good, and without experience one very green... But those greenhorn's ideas are more dedicatable than you experience-human-being...!

There is no point that you give birth to a person because of they are cute, and like babies very much, but not thinking their future and neither bother them nor educate them. The worst thing is never listen to what their kids say, only got-they-say! We all human being got thinking and feeling one ok! not your puppet!

And you think the whole world's children are so obedient? Nowadays, children are more wiser than you old people. And i totally do not think what my parents think for me is always good for me....

1.

I had wasted around two nights without sleep just to write a stupid report in bahasa in order to sue a feller who cheated our family in court, just because my mom doesn't know bahasa well! Harlo! In this case, who contribute one??? you think I can do this because of you lar..? because of you pay for my tuition and school fees in my lifetime is it?so I DESERVED to do this lar...... you also pay a lot in your son lor (my brother), why can't he do this report for you, must depend on me one meh??!! (this is totally based on my effort on study)

2.

and everytime some mail letters that you don't know what it says, who help you read one, and translate for you, and who explain and explain to you how to connect internet to check out you 4D number. ! when my parents facing problem like that, they also need my help what! You parents, eat so many salt and so experienced and so clever, then, do it yourself lar!..

3.

Somemore, who came out the idea and the thecnique to open the room door that suddenly locked, and we can't find any keys to open it, who contribute the idea one?? who??!!!! who come out such idea of using hammer to open the door!?? and you finally asked me somemore where I learn this technique... I can tell you "I LEARN IT FROM TV PROGRAMME ONE"... and what you are telling me everyday is.. "WATCH TV NO GOOD ONE..and PROHIBITED to watch it." eat salt lar,.... eat salt lar....!!!!... If I no watched the programme, I think you will spend one whole week to open that freakin' door.

So, I definitely will not quit! Just avoid them! and spend their money, definitely not care, and won't pity them anymore! What they ask me to help them, read letters, write things for them, ask me to translate things... I won't go and pandai pandai do something extra for them.... If they ask me... I will just say...

"Oh sorry!, I am stupid, what I am learning now for my future is only to be a CLERK! you know a clerk, clerk only knows how to type whatever you say only, they probably don't know how to write reports, do translate things, and somemore help you to fix the door, so sorry.If you want help, you can ask those who are studying for doctors, and engineering one.. I am Just A Clerk!"


And I will definitely won't quit my piano now! I will train myself become spirit-fingers during the exam. And at the same time, study what you call CLERK!....

like this guy.......>




(he is reading sejarah text-book while playing piano..)

ME TOO! BOTH ALSO NOT QUIT.. STUDY+MUSIC!

Isn't that mean I am NOTHING!??

This may become a superb long post regarding on the mood that I am going to type "how-long" post on here. Had a quarell today with my papa , and because of his oldies fashion and traditional thinking, and he was trying to blame and disagree me that " I always think the opinion and suggestions came out from me are always right" . But, how about he is such stubborn person too, I have my own right and authority to refuse to follow his LAWS.

He blamed everything on me because I spent a lot from his pocket since the day I born??!!! .and much much thank you to his friend that gave him such useful opinions. My papa probably is a "don't-know-anything" person. He doesn't know how good about those private colleges and how good are those local unis. He just listened whatever things that his stupid friend told him, and blame it all to my fault, because of .."me choosing those expensive college to study and why not enroll form 6 and squez into that local uni". WHAT???

I really wanna have a special and super thanks to that "fun-cheong'' that told my father those stupid things. That "fun-cheong" told my father by this way....

"No need care about those kids lar... study so good for what, just ask them go form 6, then go local universities, if cannot get, just ask them to work lar.. ! why must go to college?? You see all my kids, all went to form 6 one, then all can get through universities.
(yala, probably can't get the preferable course but those stupid courses such as pertanian,perikanan, pemakanan..those course, then send them to far far like terrenganu, sabah and sarawak.. and the stupid expenses for rental are much more higher than the tuition fees, than like this call GOOD) My daughter study account, then boys study engineering,then bla..blabla...."

then he asked my father how about me and my brother....

my father replied.." my daughter studying in college and she said she studys that kind of admin and business things.. and the son is studying in monfort.."

fun-cheong : "WHAT?college?, don't spend so much money on those college lar, like my kids , u see! All entered local universities one, all also cheap. Go college or universities also same one, also recognised by the government, spend so much money for what?... Then study admin ah? which means CLERK lah... (WHAT THE FUCK! CLERK?) ..."

fun-cheong: "ur son in monfort ah? Monfort Good ah! (he can't explain how good it is..and jus keep on saying GOOD AH....GOOD AH....).." and Because my father expressed how-good it is on his face.

I totally disagree by the way he said that what I am studying now meaning CLERK? !!!!!!! you mean what I have studied, those researches, surveys, case studies, heavy and hectic assigmenting life, paper work, think-tank, brain storms, business environment, cultures, and those stages-by-stages exams, Cgpa, finally means CLERK? Is that what International Business admin means?

HARLO UNCLE! Why don't you ask your CLEVER kids to explain to you about those universities courses. So, what you mean is, people who are studying for admin course will always only remain and qualified to be a clerk, and those study for doctor, pharmacist, engineering kinda people will get over those CLERKs and consider very clever lar . what a kind of INSULTING and Looking down people!!!! WTF.... And since, you are that kinda dictoriate person, hopefully your KIDSS (can imagine that kind of pampered one) are not suffered and tortured by you, and I can clearly see that you force your kid into that they-don't-like study environment. So, pity your kids, and hopefully they won't take revenge on you.

I totally think that your kids are so suffer and unhappy when they have to study in those local uni. OK! I myself is not that kind of "like-local" uni person, based on some factors. Because, I probably think in private colleges will get lesser malays, and I wanted to change my enviroment from form 5 (bahasa educated), and to college (english educated). Yes, I refused to speak malay, and I want a new environment. Chinese are so minority in those local universities, and I don't think the environment is better than I am having now, somemore have to waste 2 years in that freakin form6.

For instance, How many students in your class? How is the lecturer (in local uni probalby will be malay with a heavy malay slang english), I think indian slang english is much more better (my college). How many students are really tend to study? (please do not think college student will only know how to lepak in starbucks, I am 100% not that kinda person) .. I just wanna get rid from Government, local, and made-in-malaysia cerificate.. I definitely think the cert that I am going to getting now is much more worth than the local one...

This stupid "fun-cheong" uncle is a long-no-meet friend of my father, they met each other and started to talk apek's nonsense like "how-well-are-your-kids-".. He is also a kind of uncle grade that same as my father age, having a motor shop or some kind of repair-car-shop somewhere else in puchong or taman sea, if I am not mistaken. (I hv forgotten what my papa told me). and Hiring those freshies who come out from Monfort Boys Town (what they say is graduate.. ), pay low low wage rate to them and work for his motor repair shop. And that's why he kept on saying Monfort very GOOD.... .. If I'm not mistaken, he has two male and one female kids, as I mentioned just now, all went to local universities, and all VERY CHEAP.

I don't know his name and I forgot about it, If I noe, I will 100% say it here with his registered company name, better with his photos too.

And he finally don't know made what things on my father, and my papa pointed at me and say "BECAUSE OF YOUR FAULT, I HAVE TO PAY SO MUCH", when I was doing my year one, and probably had no choice reverse back to study form 6?!!!!! (I really hate form 6, it is sooooo loCAl...and it is all bahasa, hate it)

And before that, papa already promised and tell me I can go to private college on the day of finish-spm-day, "I HAVE ASKED YOU FOR THE PERMISSION TO ENROLL PRIVATE COLLEGE!!!!! AND YOU HAVE PROMISED!!! and because of your friend told you those stupid opinions and you blame all the FAULT on me. So! what do you wish me to say right now!??

"OK I'M QUIT! AFTER THIS LONG BREAK! I WILL NOT GOING BACK TO COLLEGE ANYMORE! DON'T NEED YOU TO PAY WHATEVER THING.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" SINCE YEAR ONE! I HAVE BEEN HEARING YOU BLAMING ON ME EVERYDAY.......ENOUGH! ... BYEBYE!"

And hopefully quit my piano lesson together (simply go for the exam), I don't want to hear nonsense like.." YOU PLAY SO WELL FOR WHAT? YOU WON'T DO ANYTHING AFTER YOU FINISHED GRADE 8 ONE LAR..NO NEED PLAY LAR...I OSO REGRET TO LET YOU LEARN PIANO..." (how do you know I won't get one job on it!?)

HATE THAT STUPID UNCLE AND MY EASY-GET-INFLUENCED PAPA./....

What kind of lousy friend he got!!!!!????

where i go???

Niether online nor blog for these two weekend days, and wonder where this creepy spookygal went to? I did not go anywhere larrr...... and I were sticking at home and staring at my computer though. MODEM SPOILT ALREADY....AAARRRGGGHHH!!! Please Don't expect to use your technology devices forever in life and don't expect it will be last forever. All tech's thingy have short life *sorb sorb..For example, you bought a cell phone in 15 year old, will you use it untill 40 year old? will it last (tahan) ?? technology things are all like that, hopeless! hate it!

Damn angry and "fat mang zang" when was looking at my both modem and router (they are seperated), the moden's LAN was not functioning, and it shows error to the connection of LAN. and I started to smsed to those friends who know IT things much better than me. I AM A STUPID WHEN REFFERING TO THOSE HIGH TECH DEVICES, ALL I KNOW IS ONLY SWITCH ON AND ONLINE. when something wrong to my computer, how? "MAD LAR....

when there is no any alternative ways, or the last resort! *cough cough, you will probable call the most efficient and effective-EST business in Malaysia...> streamyx! -,-"" and what they will say will be ," try to unplug your line, then plug it back, then if not, replug it, and plug another time or try to plug more few times, then restart your computer after 10 minutes, if not, plug it and unplug it then replug it and restart it, and make sure all the lines are plugged.....if not you can try to call back to us"

HARLO! you want me to plug it how many times, plug it then unplug it, before I call you I already do this routine oso dono how many times already, if continue plug, I really "SOT-PLUG" I tell you!... you still want me "try-to" call you back kah?! tIu...!!

After two days staring at that spoiltED modem, I brought it with the router to the clinic in Jusco tmn equine (drive five minutes from my house). I brought it with router cause I scared there would be some setting something thingy to do when setting both router and modem. Please don't expect a stupid girl like me buy a new modem then set it at house by my own, I am not talented on this kind of thing, I'm a "computer bak-qi". The most safest way is to bring along both devices. wahahahaha!

After arrived there, asked the staff with my pity face, "can you repair my modem for me?" staff," configurate it can lar, we don't repair one lar." =.="""".... and finally found out my modem's LAN port rosak already! have to buy a new one then, so how? BUy lor. I really use my own pocket money.

this is my new bought modem lar then.....

and I paid by myself RM170.00..hopefully can be claimed one. have to claim it back....And don't tell me that I bought an expensive one,I know it is super expensive for a modem. I just thinking if anything happened just take 5 minutes to jusco to repair. I think it worth ....

Don't expect me buy a new tech devices back home and let me set it by myself, I will totally dono what to do on it. and lucky I got bring along my router for him to set it up. waha!

and during the set up thing, the staff found out that, "YOUR ROUTER OSO ROSAK".what???!!! I just repaired it last month and now rosak again! and he told me that if kena lightning, both devices will oso kena one..."ShIt!!"

BUT during the lightning and loud loud thunder storm, I really did not switch on my computer, how come will hit by it! I off it, but I don't pull the plug out lor..

after my father heard that it was hit by the lightning storm, scolded me 9 9, and keep on saying, "see lar, spend so expensive to buy a new one, asked you everytime use anything oso have to pull the plug out one....blablabla..."

I really bought a new modem with a lesson .....I will pull it out after used...

my router is still in the clinic, hope it will be healed before my bratha come home. Hope everything will be find, and nothing shows "disconnect" in my pc, .. cause! I really dowanna call Streamyx....!!!!!!!!!

i hate my life.. is it meaningful?

Frist of all, there is no introduction in this post. Actually, I do not know how to give it a start. As similar as my life recently. It has no meaning, it is boring, annoying and blur. I have completed 80 percent of assignments, yes, school's asignment, that makes me smile, and got my 80 percent of burden release. woohoo!....

However, I don't feel that everything has passed, has completed. Yet now! I am feeling that my head got to get explode, I feel sleepy but I can't sleep. I feel relax but I'm not. Just like today! Supposed to have class on 1.30 pm, waiting for 15 minutes there chatting with friends and the lecturer had not appeared yet. Therefore, walk in to the office and got the lecturer MC!

We spend almost 1 hour to school, wasting our time in chatting for around half an hour, and go back another 1 hour. AND YES! you will get this total 2 and a half hour meaningful. NO MEANING!!!!!! do you get what i mean?????...... BUT ONE THING! i jus wonder how can our life is kidding to us!

Oh ya, merely forget it, tomorow going to have the english exam, but I do not have my previous semester's english result yet. Next, how about tomorow's??? Have i prepared??? well prepared???.. haha.... YOU kidding then...prepared for what!?? you mean study???? and my answer will always: "OF COURSE NOT!!!!!".. but yes! i do prepare the pen+pencil+calculator for tomorow's mini WAR!...keke

I don't have time!!! yes !! I don't have it!.. but I can spend whole day on reading other people's blogs, whole day for TVB dramas and astro. But I can't sustain spending only 3 hours on doing assignments and some study. Perhaps reading blogs and watching TV are more meaningful to me!

the most most most stupid thing happened to me now!!! I GOT MY HAIR HAIR HAIR!!.... i got hair falls problem! Oh shit, I just 20 years old!! Not this time for "hair falls" yet!... *scratch head!!

I just need need neeed need!!! RELAX!!! .....

what kind of methods that you use to relax yourself without spending money???.....

OMG OMG OMG, cry!!!!!

why my page like that one?????

why my page's unique visitors suddenly.. yes yes..suddenly increase so many..
you can roll down to my spookystate and see...
why like that one...????
why like that one...????
why like that one...????
why like that one...????

anyone who comes here please ... leave some messages ...!!!!!!
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still wondering why like that one?????

from a hell to heaven~`

currently spookygal is checking out her fortune in SIna web.. heehee sekali gus tel u :i'm a LEO.
i'm listening to wo hen xiang ai ta by TWINS. based on my thinking, these 2 gals do not sing as well as i thought. i jus got the meaning by this song..

i'm also searching for some usefull material from book for that stupid IBE asignment. THAT ASSIGNMENT.. still a long way to go!!!!!

now, this post is about how spookygal realise that she was in the hell and she is in the heaven now!~~ the hell refers to my primary school age and the heaven refers to my secondary school age and now.....>

well, how spookygal realised that she was in hell. yeah i used to be in primary school as all of you or us had have. OK! WHAT I'M THINKING NOW.!! "I M A SUPER IDIOT AND SO STUPID KIND OF PEOPLE!"

LAST MOMENT OF PRIMARY
i was still remember the day i have to leave my primary school. all the teachers will stryggling to say: '' now, afta you all left, u have to come back n have a visit to you mother school u know?, u all had been having a perfect moment and strong relationship with this school, this is ur paradise. After u enter into the secondary school, u will know, how bad is that!"

haha...what had she told that had made my mine into an imagination and a strong perception on my seconday life!..... AND i realised...it was totally different than what she said!!!..... and now i really able to differentiate... what is a hell and heaven.... and i realise and awake.. that i've been so tortured during my primary life!!!! i have to say :OH SHIT!!!!!!...... and OH GOD to ma secondary!!!

NOW ,HOW SOI WAS THAT DURING PRIMARY!
the forum in friendster of ma gang of felow friends during primary has totally brought me back to that time! i hate my primary school... ok..IS A CHINESE school.... i really hate hate hate ittt!!!
WHY?

• first of all, i have to say tat i realised that i was stupid during that time. still remember in standard 5. ok .as same as all of the students. the most fear.most hate.most annoy. most insane teacher that canned us in every class, almost everyday. and i think the most effort she put and contribute to our education is CANNED,PUNISH,SQUIZ, STARE, SHOUD AND etc...... still remember i got the lowest BM marks only 18%. yesh!!! i made her went mad on me... .. She canned one by one.... whoever got 60% canned 5, then 59%..then 40%.......then....yesh untill me...she canned me with infinite uncalculated on my hand... and scolded me WINTERMELON..dong gua..!!! the last word she scolded me in ma life!!! ... n i do appreciate it..coz wintermelon makes me cool!!!! ... and i don even drop tears and feel pain on it... and i got no feeling... haha...tat's made her more more mad on me... coz i'm a cold blood!!

"you are a wintermelon..y u so stupid one!!!!"

• of course, she continued offer me a special place to sit...haha..u know when u did things wrong where u gona sit in class.. OBVIOSLY, MY MARKS STILL DID NOT INCREASE!!! WTF, or what POINT is that????!!!!! huh!!! .. i jus wana tell when i hate the TEACHER... i will definitely get low marks on that subject!!! IF U WAN US TO GET HIGH MARKS.. JUS MAKE URSELF PREFERRED BY US!!!..... haha..so lucky that avoid to see her face in standard 6!!!

....... or i say now??? !!! i purposely got 18% of BM to get u mad of me!!!!... cos i hate u!!!!

• next on, about all my primary teacher..and i definitely can say it...no sorry for tat...they are SUPER DUPER BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS BIAS!!!!!! may be it refers to certain group of them.... and i really hate listen to: " YOU SEE OUR GIRL HERE.. XXX.. , WHOLE CLASS ONI SHE GOT 90% SOMETHING, U ALL ARE ALL RUBBISH, AND U SEE THE LOWEST ONE.. !! Y U ALL SO STUPID AND SHE IS SO CLEVER ONE...!! .. the words even can bypassed to another class one... :" U ALL SEE NEXT CLASS'S XXX, SHE OR HE GOT HOW MANY A's.. AND compare TO YOURSELF.. (during the mock x m) how U ALL GONA SIT FOR UPSR AND HOW U ALL GONA SCORE..(f''' u! i'm here to learn not only the matter of A's OK!!!)........................

-------- the most hated thing!.... or even now practised by all school in malaysia..> HOW CAN THEY PUT THE GOOD STUDENTS IN ONE GROUP AND THE POOR ONE INTO ONE GROUP!!!.... this will definitely make the good become perfect and the poor become rubbish... it is such a stupid system........SOMEMORE..the parents will start to show their public speaking by : MY SON GO MORNING CLASS ONE ER, HE IS IN "M" class ONE ER!!!...

OI!!! SI LAI..... YOUR SON MAY BE WILL BECOME RUBBISH ONE DAY OK!!!!.....

THIS WILL DEFINITELY DESTROY THE EDUCATION!!!.......

from primary to secondary, and i realised that i got so much freedom, so independant, i got no homework to do..and i can spend all time to tuition centre and learning x tra stuffs and even part time job. during my primary, i got so much of homework that no time to waste on...

haha..i like my BM teacher indeed.she treats us nice..and finally i got an A in pmr..haha..haha...haha..haha..then i become a water melon!!!! full of passion in my life!!!! ...

about the fear

i got read the forum, it is so interesting to hear from u guys and i cany realise that meet u guys here back. yeah... and about how much u afraid and fear of teachers......... and what i have to tell is: "afraid of what lar.... they are all oni human being. i'm not even afraid of evil, y we must afraid of them.. and obey like a dog !!! WE CAN SAY:OBJECTION!!!!!>>>>> tat's what i realised that during my secondariesszz!!!

we even can SUE..ACCUSE.. COMPLAINT them...on ABUSE...

1. physical abuse (canning and squiszzz our ears!!!..some even worst that pull our hair)
2. mental abuse (by calling us stupid human being and even wintermelon)
3. force (still remember got one teacher before that ask us to squiz our own ears and canned ourself..if not she will take action.)
4. non-sense punishment (command us to say "thank you" afta punishment)
5. as vandaliser ( she threw our book on the floor and ask us to pick it up and this also consider as mental abuse also)
6. evil behave ( when you do things wrong, she appoints your classmates do not friend with you and laugh at you and this also consider non-sense..)
7. not in responsible (this probably happened when your parents take a visit to your school teacher, and complaint about the teacher. THAT teacher will started to be bias and hate you in class)

heelooo!!!! these 7 facts only happened to adult political life, but why you bring these into our childhood!... is your pressure and not the student's pressure. DONT think that u are in pressure and simply give punishment that does not make any sense..... based on those unethical and immoral of teachers..will kill the education and all the lovely pupils in the world

tat is why that i realised during my primary i had experienced these pressure, : lots of homework that u can do it untill midnite under pressure. and that causes stupid fear in our heart!...and I WAS BEING STUPID AND THOUGH I WAS IN HEAVEN WHEN I WAS IN STANDARD ONE TO SIX!

and lack of understanding of HUMAN RIGHTS!

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WHAT I HAVE TO TELL THE FELLOW TEACHER...::""" super SUPER SUPER

BIAN TAI!!!

N i have to pity to those who are experiencing it!

sigh

bad house!!!

today is really sucks..

raining from day to nite, nite to day..

this happened to ma really lau yar house..

having flood in ma house..

GGGRRRRGGGGRRRRGGGRR

look up there ..all water!!!gggrrr

can't sustain of the coffee

It is so sad to talk about this. I think i have some kind of ban to coffee. Today in uptown, there is an "open eating" by the HSBC company that provides free food+drink+kuih right infront of it and it stucks the road of course.

This location which is situated in the uptown 37 and their neghbour "starbucks" (also jus open) .
Starbuck gives away free coffee too, as HSBC do. The credit card salesperson came to ma mom's workplace that i was there reading about "chinese culture" . by emily.

salesman: these are some coupons that hsbc gives to you all and use this to exchange for one regular cup of coffee. It is free.

peers started to voice in': wah! so dai ah! starbucks coffee very expensive one wor. We all go take when luch time.

peipei the poor spookygal also recieved the coupons too. and started to wonder...

still remember that i was in the secondary school during the PMR exam used to drink a lot of coffee that made me became.. one day i start to allergy and bored of it. When the same situation comes (x m) .. deng deng.. started to drink coffee...

but in one day, i dono y: i started to feel dizzy and hot and soar dry and faint. In the countinuos days , the same thingy remain..> and the worse it after drinkin' it, and vomit out+ started to get fever.

Untill today, coffee and me have no LOVE! and we don't match. And i realise (on today) i hate coffee really really really very very very much....

When i passed by the Starbucks retail, and one guy came out from it..OMG..the smell ..made me cough+vomit again..> i hate coffee..>

i have no LOVE with these kind of EXPENSIVE thingy..>//

this maybe control over me..
peipei:save money!

hahahhahahaha

what a boring WEddingxxzz!!!!

as continued from the previous post..that i have to talk a story here..
especially chinese culture wedding.. >
the wedding nowadays.i mean that i attended was super duper boring..they are not enough creativeness on that..>
the routine i can even know what will be happened for that day..>
1. the wedding nite eve, there is the HAIR COMBING ceremony, actually it must be done in selected moment.and find one woman who is have BEAUTIFUL life with her husband to comb her hair(bride's).

2.ok// then next day, the the bride make-up.prepared.to wait for her future husband..> her future husband arrive ..must pass few stages and gv ang pau for the ji mui..! then get his future wife.

3.afta that..they have the "jam char" for the olDIES..the the groom take the bride back to his home...>as getting married. the femle leave in the male house..>like that la!afta reached there..there will be another "jam char"

4. the wedding ceremony end-up for that day...> it will take you about 5 to 6 hours to complete the CHINESE WEDDING.

5. the most interesting of course the evening wedding dinner... the invitation card is super...unattractive+not creative at all... you can oni c red..!!!yes it is very RED in colour..some of the stingy couples even doz not put on their wedding pics on it!!!ok..lets talk about the dinner.

6.the dinner supposed to start at normally time set by 8.00pm...however, when it translate to our very own chinese time..it is= to 9.00++pm..>ok the dinner get started at 9.00pm..~ u can see many hot chicks and even aunties..wearin many GOLDEN+SHINING..accessories+ even gowns that look more beautiful than the bride..> some of them go n SET HAIR LAR..MAKE-UP NICE NICE LAR..etc...for SHOWING OFF!!

7. as my purpose to that dinner is EAT! and lets talk about the food.!!! will it be attractive?glorious?worth?..I DONO..I JUS EAT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! the first one..of course the main one..i always like the first food..the second one..SIGH always be the shark-fin..> i hav a ques based on this scene..> cant it make the shark-fin to the last to be served or may not the second part....!!?!!..... i'm like: "cher, second menu of course shark-fin one la..>aiya eat lar.."ok!

8. afta few served...> they will be another YAM SING ceremony.... super boring..THEN CUT CAKE..sigh!!!@@@@!!!!

9.then afta the last meal..then go home..>!!!

10. OMG.. what a boring wedding..
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now.. for me:

1. eventhough not ma wedding..... i advice..please lar...come out some new idea...!!

2.i got bored of wedding..and i'm thinking not to get married..

3.make the guest satisfy everything, and make the wedding more memorable lar..>i mean every guest when they leave .. they will memorized it.>

4. select a proper restaurant or talk the the customer service to check out the new ideas.

5. advice from me is...: don bother the wedding cost will be cheap or expensive...> check and allocate the "WEDDING+MONEY PROJECT" wisely....damn...>

6. listen to the spookygrace advice :make your wedding day memorable and full of ideas... !!! this is the couple choice...not the AUNTY AUNTY.. cos i oni c the aunty aunty oni they all talkin so loud and so interrupting...

7. finnaly, make your wedding day full of romantico+memora .. xDxDxD

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here is the last resort:

"find a wedding planner to plan for you..>"

normally boring dayzz.>>>

still remembered yesterday..was waiting for ma mom to got home..and i reached home around 11.oo oclock..!!

it was super duper boring..+..exhausted..>this mornin afta waoke up.. have to wash-up the wing choi chai...make sure he is very very clean clean.... afta that..i hv my whole afternoon on tv watching...........

what i hate most is..the ntv 7 has change the schedule that ma fav GONE!! what the h****, i supposed to watch the travel linkyzzxx stuf then the fengshui study.. it changed to the 2 hours apek and popo oni watch de movies.. it is not like 60's..> it is almost 40's..>> that oni ma grandpa and grandma will watch it.....++... ma mom hd took the tvb dramas to ma unclezz.. sigh..>> no vcds to watch..>>sigh..>>

it is a crapzxxcccvnvmdujswkjhg!!@@@@!! day..>

i'll doin next..updatein' the blog..!!!@#$%^&((%$#@!!!