I am Jammed

I got so long time no blog, just purely because this blog does not make myself having mood on.. erm.. making money. ooi.. Don't view me as so materialistic...... yes I am..

I am damn 9 busy... arrghh~! I got no mood.. no mood...no mood.. and i got so many things to tell.

First of all.. My Parents:

Aiya, they are always the both who make me crazy all time just because of little money. Father is like that, and, my Mom is like that. Who knows that one day, I will got another tumor inside my head and my butt. Just because I am so stressing of their attitudes.

My mom araised this: "You better go and find piano work har, and pay for all the electrical bills and all those junk expenses."

Me: "what??? o.O"

Don't view me that I am so disrespect to my mom and so ignore and annoy her. I don't think I have to work to pay for all the bills at this moment. And, she yelled that she is now poor and economic is bad and it is affecting her daily revenues. Shut Up lor~ She use to spend like a fat rich lady all the while, and lending out so much to her siblings and so care of her siblings. Why not ask her siblings to help her to pay, and ask me pay har?(Ok, seems I am the one who living in this room, no care) ... My brother is too innocent at this point that he does not know anything that is happening among us, rather be innocent lar.

She used to give so big angpau during the wedding ceremony and to show off how ABLE her family can be (I no care lor, she wan to show off to others that her siblings are so well so good).

She used to buy so sparkling gold neckless to her nephew during his wedding just to show off that actually her nephew is ABLE (I really dono he able what..). She used to buy her son and so pampered him and bought him a RM3000++ DELL laptop.

Eh, you got all the ABLE to buy all those things, and, you are now telling me that you are UNABLE to pay for the bills. Honestly, from young till now, you really spent little on me. And I dare admit that my father spent on me more than you, I don't think you can be so poor lor..

Papa work salary is lesser and more lesser than you so much, why he can able to save and you can't. You so like to care and give things to your siblings, why not you show off your pity face infront of them and see how am I and papa torture you ah? and ask them to care you back lar.. One my father is damn stingy, One my Mom is damn the not stingy. How to create a balance.. ??

I can say that whatever happened to both of you I am dare to do whatever things to overcome. No matter what. You want pay bill? I go borrow to pay it. If no money, why not we just starve and eat poridge all the while, why must we spend so much on eating in high-end restaurant. If you poor, just admit that you are poor lar... Why must to show off that you are ABLE meh.

I don't think we need to rely on others and they rely on us. Honest, we are one family and we have our own life, why must we depend on others so much. We no car then no car lar, why must grab others people car to claim and to show off that car is actually yours. We want to go to that destination then we walk with our own ability, not to borrow others leg and claim that is a grant.

I less depend on you both since young, I like to work part-time and I do like money. The problem is :vehicles transport is my problem. If it has a better service of buses and public transports, I would absolutely go work for it. Because, everyone likes money especially during this downing economy. I don't think I am not working to pay bills already proven that I am a bad daughter. I worked for years with same job and same environment, I did the best in work and study, I just trying to do my best for myself and my family. I am not to wreck lor..

You think I am so ABLE. I am now telling you that I am very Unable to pay to you guys. I talked to papa that he wanted me to pay him back all my education fees. Honestly, I can pay, then I pay lar.. If can't...tHEN I not to pay. Since, you raised me till degree level . I admit that I am not satisfy with that. So, I still have lots to save, save for my master, save for my piano, save for my car installment and also planning to buy houses and study overseas and travel. I am too ambitious to create my own life. I just don't wanna starve to pay both of you. That's it. I think this is the best ever. Eh, I no ask u give me money you steal laugh lar. still wan me pay ah.. =P

WITH THIS, I HAVE JAMMED IN MY ASSIGNMENT.. this is not a good Feng Shui at all (as what I am doing my dissertation topic)

SECONDly... A BROKEN HEARTS

Yes, we broke. And I aware that I did not do my best on this. I surrender that I am the failure and loser in this stupid game. Who knows one day that I am the stupid idiot and sooi people who overcome this situation.

And, sometimes you think all the while is good, nothing and having fun. And the one that you are having fun with, used to shoot you infront of your forehead then die. Bad luck was surrounding me that time.

I can feel a bad "Chi" there. Symptoms like, I broke my lovely clinelle mirror sudenly, My hair drops terribly, and nightmares all day and night. That already temper my heat and making a bad Chi internally and externally. Just feel that I deserve back what kind of bad things that I have done all the while, and this is the karma and payback.

But, it happens too soon. And, one shot give you one headache. 人一衰起来.还真的衰到贴地.

I was not a good girlfriend to you. But, you claimed that is your problem and not mine. Honestly, the problem belongs to both of us or even 3,4,5..persons. There is always a relation to create a problem. I no suka suka fun fun to go and create a problem for myself and suffer lor.

You deny to tell yours but only telling you not love me anymore. I am to tell that I really sorry and sorry to be the person who take part in this problem. My problem is, I am too outrange from what others are doing. I love to be alone all the while and refuse to speak all the while and yet not knowing the situation of being together (because I thought together is like that).

I am living in my own world and failed to have long term partner. I am too use my own style and that has created a force in the relationship. You might feel stress and thus this leads to your problem. And the problem arised.

I sad myself, happy myself and take less concerns on others. However, initially, me and you just want to have fun, the results seem not the outcome that we both wanted. Or, there are other factors that influenced the outcome as well.

I admit that I am really timid. I was to find a long-no-see friend to be in a relationship instead of a fresh stranger. As I thought I'll know you well. And that is the point I only dare to be with the person that I know long time and at the same time I had fallen love on you. The result is not I wanted to be, and it comes to an end.

Do things how hard I refuse to give up, no matter what, and I believe a solution that can tie it up. However, will the one that you would like to share your solution with, will able to solve the problem with you together? No, there are different kind of people, and human beings. Different ranges, status and cognitive thinking.

I am sorry that what I did to you. Cause I only felt the love that I long time no experienced it when I was being with you. And I really thought that you felt the way too. From the memories that you smile, hold my hands and happy together was just a lie. I never thought that you are forced to hold my hands and like me, thus make you suffer, I am so sorry. I am so regret and feel dissapointed on myself that I did not aware it.

You treated me a lot all during the moments and make me happy all the while, I thought and really thought. But, what I thought is a NOT. That you telling me that you no love me.. no more..

I realise that nothing will be perfect if you really want it to be. Sometimes, you are getting too confused and you are the one who-self to ruin it up. Perfect imperfect. It is always a balance in life, and no perfect not imperfect. There is only a major or minor.

Learning a lesson in this game proven that I am developing in the sense of caring and loving others. Of course taking caution actions. I love to love. What about others?

No matter, I did a huge mistake on this. I have no guarantee that I might do it again. Because of you, I try my best not to let anyone take in my place anymore. Cause, it really hurts. Crying consumes a lot of energy and it affect my dissertation indirectly. I am not dare to step further out of my own world anymore.

i REALLy got jammed in my work. Hahaha... do you imagine that I only left a little time to finish it. 3 though though assignments?? Can I choose to faint..?? NOW???

>.<

No.. No choice...You have to cheer up no matter how bad luck you are in now.. *sorb sorb


P/S: No matter how hardworking and so given-heart on doing your things. The result might be unexpectable and contingence. You have your responsible to face and to accept whatever come to you. Not to blame others but yourself.

Life in complication

You might not understand. And, you might understand. Do you understand? Does it complicate. Problem solvings are easy to be done, as well, for any inner outer problems.

Who might solve my complication?

Am I think too much?

I admit I am. But, I refuse to say thinking too much is bad. "Think Too Much" sometimes helping a lot to solve my families' problem. Where my dad use to agree with me.

To be Honest. Honestly says, I am happy that I am seeing who am I now. I am happy that I not even cried a single tear when I quarell with my father. I respect him as much that I can, however, you will not always respect whoever that not respect you. I have a very polaristic thinking with my dad. And, I think it is a good thing, it is a fact. Because, plus, I got myself developed.

After working for these entire three months time. I realise what I am studying now has no relation in my future working experience. It is too technical , and, I am too educated. You don't expect a person full of knowledge to work in a technical work, include interpersonally. That is what had happened with my dad.

After studying in college, I started to appreciate, and after working, I started to realise. Appreciate that what I am getting now which absolutely might not get in local universities. I am happy that I have been growing up my mind, thinking you and me, the public and communities.

I realise, getting flying colours, whatever results u got in schools, As, first class, 4.0. SOmetimes it is hardly to be measured, to be judged and allocate. During the secondary schools, I vomit whatever I memorised and got As that lead me to become a partial scholar. But, what I realise, that actually I am not worth to be a scholar. And, the college judges a person ability by looking at the form five results, that what I have vommited out. The skills and ability to vommit out whatever cramp in your brain.

That is what you will working in your future career. Getting flying colours but not applicable. Getting flying colours is a waste if your brain is still remain at six years old. An open-minded person like me, currently, I think those results are all bullshits, your parents comparisons you with others shows them how childish and immature they are.

I am proudly to say, I am lucky that my parents have been giving at least 80% supportation, for me to college, and not local universities. I understood, it costs a lot, but it is worth more than that. If not, I am not brave and dare enough to have such loud voice debate with you all, and I don't even have the chance to influence my family members. If not, I am not even develop my mind, and it remains at six years old.

The most important thing is my own development, eventhough you are claiming that I bad enough to spend your money on it. And do not even expect I will pay back in full terms. And I am proudly to say, I am always my parents' daughter, I am going to be strong, no tears ..

Just bring it on..

nah~~ WHO SAYS i No blog~~i brog lor...

ok lar.. who says i no blog. I no disappear ok. I really very the super the busy one lor ... sometimes.. you dono my work.. making me want to die oni. If got time. spend to gai gai is more shiok then blogging.. (*stop scolding me k..)

Ok lar. Want me tell you interesting stories not? wait.. My birthday present leh? My birthday you all no send me some presents one ah? Ok lor.. then no stories lor..

Who says i stop jek.. See. Now already 11.oo pm. Yet i still typing post, really mmn-wah-tak. but Still have to care about me mar. I work very san fu one lor..Somemore after tomorrow onwards no more car pool.. I have to pool myself. Have to take bus. Have to depend my papa to carry me from bukit jalil to Pj. yam-gong... filing all the time and most time in office situation of spookygrace appears.. "Blur~~" somemore have to take bus go home. Then at that time dono spend how many hours. Worrying pick pockets. Crowded lrt.. tat makes me more "stick-line"

To be honest. At these precious time, I really learnt a lot. First thing is to learn how to cry, especially it is the emotion of, you really don't know what you cried for. And may be you will ask :" why you cry jek.. " .. me:" sorb sorb..... I don't know wor.. "

I think qiong yau should ask me to some audition and take me into acting lor.May be i can become one crying star one day.. Crying no easy OK..

Secondly, is how to think what people is thinking, and yet the thinkings lead to your think. Meaning you think what people think. Then you add another additional thing in your own think lor.. understand.. Then the conclusion of it is.. thinking+crying. That is because, you think and have thought that not supposed to think, and wrongly think..

Whatever lar.. I understood it. Just feel it and got it. I think everyone would have the sense of the thinking mind one. Why I think too much har? You know ler. Inside office everyday filing and data entrying, bored of the Mp3, what you should do is to think something stupid lar.. Sometimes it is not stupid though., it might really useful one day in my life. Pei pEi, be calm, be cool and the world treats you right. Thinking is wonderful, may be... you can find the truth.

Thirdly, is to "tahan", sustainable is an ability of one. No matter it is physical, mental or emotional, normally when you will feel pain. Sometimes also sustain and tahan a bit lar when you go toilet.. Similarly, if you refuse to tahan until you reach the loo, everything will come out automatically...

Simultaneously, as in your life. Very hard to explain and describe. Sometimes you just have to feel, touch, experience and learn the skills of '' tahan" .. I think the view of your mind point will be very beautiful too..

Special dedication to persons who leave us.. *Mariah's Bye Bye..
"bye bye" are the precious words to inform someone that might be met one day..

bye. Lilly..Ong lai.. and Wai po.. and Popo.. whoevery happying in paradize..

muakzzz.. nite everyone..

Just work like a Siu Lai Lai

bEING 100% of tendency to blog today. muAHahahaha~~ Just because something really interesting with 1% of wuliaoness. Don't ask me whether I got my job during the holiday. Yes. I have got one, and quite very stupid routinable one lor..

Very unfortunate, the fuel price increasing and others FMCGs are following. And, that this time I got a job. You think I still got choice to choose from company A to Z.. erm.. which company I wanna work har?? I want a very having got potential company one, I want to work hor.. very challenging work one.. bla bla bla..



Is there anyone gonna tell me I am still having this choice though?. No lor.. And, any one tell you that I am working so-hardworking and hell exhausted from morning till evening? (take a deep breath) ...


Anyone working in big companies? Are you seeking for promotion nowadays? Are you feeling very stress because of heavy work load?? You fade up of your staff that who not listen to you and you just feel wanna give them slaps on their faces? Do you feel that you are the most potential subordinate in your department and your boss might give you a position above?



Nah.. Stop bull shitting..~~




You got so hardworking o Not.. =P Don't tell me that everyday MSNing infront of your computer desk (not seen by your boss) and blogging and Facebooking are considered harworking, in contributing to your company? Do you know some companies' offices provide Karaoke spaces for their staff? (where where I wanna go?) Red-Box lar.. go work go work...









Go for hardworking in a company will let u easily got promoted. Might Be. But in this Asian especially South East Asian's culture, Staff are more to soft approach basically feminity and collective. And, even need a high degree of supervision. U got so hardworking if your boss not around you o not. ??


Yes, as a part of the company. We, the staff should get benefited of what you should provide to us. For example, Even if we demand for high class 5 star toilets which for staff to release their stress inside it. (eg. toilet is the best place to gossip as a mean to release stress by talking rumours)

But, besides potential subordinates in your company who consider hardworking, intelligent and smart in performing. Who else? Don't think those aunties are so reliable to perform well lor. Don't even think that they are "the one" who help you to negotiate businesses. They might just want to be relax-work-performance.. May be a "cafe" is their best place to rely on..

You might not know that a very traditional chinese companies and consider international, that I am working for. there is a polaristic of staff's behaviour. You can see serious and potential. And you can see one kind of Siu Lai working type.

Siu Lai working type will be:

"Aiya, we are all are Aunty-Aunty already lar.. So hardworking for what?? I oso no chance to get promotion liao.. ~ Oso no chance to get more increment in my work performance, I oni a clerk lar.. Why not I just have to be relaxed all the time,, Somemore the boss everyday oso Not around, Samo I work so many years liao. I still here.. No one dare to fire me oso.. I work here so long liao.. No need so hard work lar.. Let other people have the chance to work ma.. I don't fight work with them one.. So better relax.. "

Therefore, the company should provide N pounds of Milo and Tea for this SIU LAI group of staff. Because.. may be to appreciate their "aunty-contribution" lor (important grape vine)





So relax.... And, relax is very important OK. ! Because if the staff are working under pressure, it will affect their performance indeed. And, therefore, they need Milo to charge their energy almost at least 10 cups per day...




Sleep also important, as well as gossiping with others. Without these as an entertainment within a department. Staff wil not be motivated and inspired to work. In fact, soft approach of work attitude is considered the best working ethics in Asia (except Japan). You agree? No choice if you not agree. Cause.. That is what I am experiencing currently..




Just have to work like a Siu Lai Lai.. and your life will be very relax and enjoyable...

Do it!~ Trust me!~

Supposed to be relaxed.

After two days of examination, erm.. avoid asking me how was it, I know it won't be very satisfy that What-I -Wrote.. ggrr! ~ Anothing thing happened that made me quite dulan on it. It is really Dulan. avoid saying it lar, people will think that I very not kind enough and small-gas kind. But, It is still have to take concern on this, and I do believe that this might happen to many people out there, this might be a lesson.

The first day exam, yer.. Very headache, and, after it, I think my hand lost control and shaking while all the time when my papa drove me home. It was sooooo painful.. I would like to demand and prefer to have aural test lor.. Not enough time, and rushing to write, might cause my hand and fingers swolen. TNS . Why everytime's exam also makes my hand so suffer, I gonna consider an insurance package on it..

And I felt and it smell so smelly on that day when I was sitting on my exam desk. TNS. Who organised the seats. ??!! It was so smelly lor.. wanna know why?? The incident was like this..>

Then you know why lar??... I was surrounded by shits around me.. Don't you smell it too? ggrrr!!

Have had the presentation... foo... Relax... Yet get to work....

I really did spend my holiday with meaningfull jobs.. Like Sleeping, Eating and onlining.. Great right? and a very active forumer..

I have no point why+how come they arrive such quick to set it up. The buffet dinner would be on last Saturday, and thEy came on Wednesday. Does it very annoying and inconvenience.. ?

Things to do:

• open account


• transfer from Public Bank


• Call someone


• buy Formal dress


• Work on letters


• Work on brochures..
  

keep breathing..

yes, I QUIT. i no work jor..

As i have or can be said i terminated my working with relatives assignments last Saturday, but, It doesn't mean i found a better one. Yaler.. still waiting somebody to call me for interviews and I realised these days I really busying in interviews, but, just ONLY interviews.

I HAVE SICKED OF INTERVIEWS. JUST GIVE ME A JOB CANNOT KAH!!!!!!

anyway, still waiting the results calling me.. haizz... what to do? I also lectured : "dON't every job u oso take, at least got a benficial compensation package one, at least got 1000 ++, you think you really work free meh, just bargain with them.. don't simply.. bla bla bla.. "

yaler.. the internship only pay an average of RM550, u wan work mou?

furthermore, that Jobstreet really not reliable..

I just don't wanna end it up teaching piano lesson.. >.<

Anyway too, thank you for all the buddies helping me finding jobs, forwading reumes (hopes he really did lar, but if bz, just ignore lar..)

haizz.. have to search job myself.. and don't fully depend on those recruitment agencies that they might help you.

At this point, just wanna raise my voice to "keep breathing" sustain until the last minute that the jobs call on you, as same as the victims in China and Myanmar, it is no way to quit in entire life. If you are still living in this world, and you realise you are not dead when u open up ur eyes, meaning you still have to keep on breathing untill the end of your life.

I have attended the graduation day of my bRos.. in Monfort, these are several pictures took..

Niasing.. still mingering i can graduate o Not..

I don't care ler.. I wan to work~~

press..

LOU MOU, you are too underestimate me..

I don't think without my involvement, you and your siblings can well gossip about me. And I don't think the culture that you practising can definitely affect me and we the Leo's. I don't think being to be keeping quite you got a chance to talk more. Don't highly expect that you yourself and you siblings are so well in influencing. Not me, Not Voon Hoe, Not papa.

I can do whatever to stand on my side to protect my families, sorry, not yours. I am not a good person to your family. Don't ever think now, that your single words can influence me. I never listen to you, and, because I am educated to being able to control not too-easy-to-get-influence.

Don't ever think you can find such benefits that belongs to Leo's. You think it is jus a lunch or dinner that we can be happy with. You think, you are just borrow few hundreds or one thousand. You think all those are hell money though? Don't ever make money to be so funny. Its not. You just keep spending on your families, but, please be specific. We are not willing as you. We are not willing to share this complication. And, importantly, be realistic.

If papa did not raise this up, I think he is the moron till now still be. If I never talk to him, he thinks I am the one who play fool. Point, lending money to your siblings to do business? Huh? what about black and white statement. I don't think nowadays I should be such truthful to your siblings.

Where is Black and White?

You think it is just few hundred huh? It is the money that papa keep it by working with his blood! He planned to retire with it, or, spending my education and Voon Hoe's education! What about your children??? STUPID MORON MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

your two kids no money no car!!! Having full of problems to pay fees and expenditure, problems of having just a lunch! You willing to spend such much money to your brothers' business, keep on investing into it with nothing, giving all your cars to your siblings. Just to show off!!!!!!!!!!!

The worst is lending money without any black and white to your siblings? You never thought of you or papa might die one day? WHAT If they not gonna return it? The Sepang's house is still under your brother's name? When to strike it, when to replace it???

Don't simply voice to others that your "lou gong hou yau loi" !! It consists blood, and you this wicked woman asking for more and more! He wants to do what is his business ! Don't simply ask him to take out some cash just to borrow your all brothers. Just I don't believe and trust your brothers and don't trust you too.

I know that even me n bratha sleeping on the street without food, you are still caring your brothers too, and even your nephews. You yourself borrow money to them is none-of-our business, don't dare to involve us~!

You think people are only show respectation by just calling "uncles and aunties"? "Good morning or Good afternoon?" Sorry, I don't practise this at all. Please show your respectation during you are actioning. It is just hatious. Show your respectation to "we" too.. and yourself, it is just disgracing.

what if someone calls me : "jie jie! ! Good morning" afterthat, does it means he/she can simply open up my fridge to eat my ice-cream? Golek over my bed? switch On my computer which is too personal to me? play my piano with your dirty,smelly,wet fingers? It is not what I practise Sorry!

I know you are regreting just because I know a lot...

I think I am not having many fails though**

sorry for being so outdate.. quite a bit of sorrow when i saw my status besides there.. (Avoid to see it).

Yesterday I dreamt a lot of mice and rats around my here. They are gathered, all grey in colour. One of it hanging itself on the stick that I use to hang my clothes last time. All so cohesive, they are like waiting for something. Then.

I dreamt my house's window has opened not very wide, when I aware of it, i quickly close it. So prompt. Haha.. that's lucky, they unable to go in ..

I jus dreamt a lot of them gathering, just like having their party, going elsewhere, anywhere through the drain. But, I don't think they are dirty, they are quite clean. I dreamt then, I ride on a car, may be I am driving or not? But I remember the car moved, but, only me myself in the car, and I sitting on the driver sit. Just assume that I drive. I drive very fast, ..

All rats chasing over my car, I kept running though.. with my car .. tHEY ARE chasing.. many of them..

OK, I think the dream ends here, I continue to dream another person, I think I already long time no meet. He is my brother's "kai jie fu". Still remember he is an insurance agent. Ok, I have no point why I dream it. ... .. .. .. Saw many people around there, my mother ask me to call someone..

I saw the insurance agent with a "dou san " hairstyle sitting on a big chair. I am ordered to call him "Mr. CEO"..

o.o

WEIRD..

when I came to explain about the rats thing..

It has implication of:

Dreaming many rats at once or around you meaning you could face a lot+many times of failures. And, you should prepare to face it though...

However, I think I'm not.

Lets continue it during my breaktime. Having class now..

Happy blogging and assignmenting.

No Money No Wedding~

as what we say..

Sometimes reallly dont know people think what. If you are poor just admit it that you are poor (like me). Pretending to be a rich guy is stupid silly and really idiot.

However, sometimes, things can be unexpected. Get pregnant before marriage is very common in today's society. It is a trend too. What to do, people now are so busy, stressed.. with all that facts, anything could be happened today's life.

Here is the case of 25 year old guy with a 19 year old girl, getting married because of their going-to-born baby. No money, but have to get married soon. As in common, the girl needs a price of merely RM6000, and the guy cut it to RM3800. Just because he has run out of cash, he somemore demand for pay it in installment. ?????? O.O can meh?

Addition of some rental payment, working only merely one thousand a month, the girl without any jobs currently and somemore pregnant. Could it be more dificult and difficult. ??

Parents can effort to pay just because his parent divorced and both of them selfish, sometimes his dad will not, his mother will just a witch+bitchy. His mother even tried to seperate the couple (his son) by telling bukan-bukan to his son's girlfriend, please don't forget that his girlfriend only 19 year old and can't able to face pressure and not even able to criticise her own thinking.

If you no money, better control yourself by not doing anything wrong that will cause a Marriage conclucion. Please propose if you are really rich,and girls, please find a rich guy. There is no such thing like what your parents tell you, "Oh, your boyfren no money nevermind, most important is he will go and find."

For me, the most important thing is he has the money and effort to share it with you, although both are working. There is no such thing of no-money-nevermind. How you so sure that he might 100% go and work for money, if he works without money??? And you are not sharing the money? How you gonna survive with that? You don't tell me that, give birth to children+pampers+susu+baby stuff, paid by the girl ok..Don't be silly that i gonna survive the kids (that the guy oso have to reponsible) by my own..

Jus brought out the view by my parents jus now, what I thinked was, why getting married so mafan. Not only the price, but also all those ritual (chinese) have to be done.

So, I not greedy at all one ok..My future marriage price that i will demand from the guy will be.. RM189000. Agree??? I'm not greedy ok, and I'm not selling myself..lor..

No need ah? My father pay for my tuition and UEL fees, also don how much, then somemore, i went in Hospital once, also dono how much already. My dad also pay a lot in all my study's fees from kindergarten till now, also dono how much already. My mom every week also buy bird nest (yen wor) for me to eat, till I look so beautiful. RM189000 already very cheap lor..

so, no money, better don't marry...

I think I am energised~

No matter how harsh the life can be, sometimes, it still be. I think I have recovered well after all things, but just have to appoint for check ups. No choice that I am still a sick people till now. Ok, it doesn't state out at my forehead "refer sick people>Leo Pei Pei".

I NOT SICK. Don't treat me and look at me like, "I just back from the space.. tell me what happened in the space.. Cause I was lucky enough to get into space and adventure the galaxy and even asked me did you see any aliens?? ." What I wanna tell you will be : "Oh, my space trip was fantastic, and I have well experience, you want to experience it also ah?"

I am very thankfull to all that cared me when I was in hospitalised, and gave me a lot of advices and opinions during the entire journey of operation such as , pain O not har? How wan har? How will I fall asleep har? Still remember what my cousin sis asked me what I feel for it before the operation. Want me to tell you : "Oh, I am too excited for it, cause I am so lucky lar, kena lottery oso damn not that lucky." She added: "Don't you sked?" Me: "Sked your head ler, who says I sked."

Admit it, I am kiasu kind of people, want me to cry and act pity infront of you will NO WAY, just trying to pretend it all the time. Cause I don't want anyone feels hurt because of me. But sometimes, it was still not under my control. "I cry, people follow cry, dono cry what, but still cry for the luck that I got."

I will not forget that looking at my father crying when he was eating roti canai on that day. I found an excuse that I wanted to go to the toilet. When I was walking out from it, saw his face full of tears and he kept on wiping it with his handkerchief while drinking the kopi tarek. Can you imagine that an old ah pek uncle crying just like thier kids bully and abuse them when they are in their old age. How can I sustained to see that, turn around, my turn to cry. Still remember it was the TKM presentation day on Saturday Morning. He also kiasu kind of feller, he acted and pretended nothing when he saw me came out from the toilet.

And my mom dono had cried dono how many nights for that, I did not know that till my aunt told me and my cousin sis leak the secret out that my mom too worried of it even the doctor keeps saying :"Nothing one lar...."

I do not know why god will let them cry it because of me, but not let me cry it because of them. They deserve it to be sad??. I am willing to be the sad one not them. And my brother did not know that untill the day before the operation, he acted nothing and too strong for anything.. "Operation ma Operation lar.." but he shocked of that..

what are all these my beginning of my punishment before I go to hell....

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It was just a harsh journey till what I thinked why I deserved an-one-knife-cut into my stomach. I really did learn a lot all the while, still remember my relatives visit me, maybe just came and kepoh..

Can you imagine that when they came to a visit into my room, was just like having a party and they kept holding the TV control to watch astro?. Or, they just came into my room, ''oh, your bed number is 311* ah?" (you know ler), or they will keep on asking my mom.. "She still can get pregnant or not one har?" or "Her period still can come ah??"

Of coures we all very angry with that, if there is a risk that I not getting pregnant after the operation, will I still considering of cutting the cyst out? "I CAN PREGNANT" don't treat me like a freak..

Now I really know how people see you in different ways when they know something different on you. And I will try my best to change my life, just because i have just suey once.


You will know how I got infected and how it will look like and act.. "OH..LIKE THIS.."



See pictures at your own risk (might be very geli), roll down...(these are what inside my stomach)

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this is the normal ovary (egg) and tube in the left hand side.


this is the cut-off ovary that infected and the cyst grew inside the ovary, that is why the entire right hand side have to be cut out. it is 12 cm diameter and it is just like a ball. Equivalent to a five months baby. Norwonder the doctor says "20 weeks baby oh...." =.=""



Other than that, the doctor also offered a package of, "Get another cut for free.." In order that I can able to jump freely after I eat. This is my appendix, the doctor recommended, "cut you appendix out also lar, no function one.." .." good..good.."

This is my nga-nga-cheong...



After the cut, the pain was like.. >.<"



But now, I can jump very well... My dad even drive me to the park and let me have a jog just yesterday at Bukit Jalil Park.

A wedding+ A funeral

Yesterday supposed to be acted happy because I going to eat a lot in a wedding dinner. I hd taken out my dress that I gonna dress up at night, hehe... I look slimmer and confident to wear that new buy dress (I purposely went to buy dress because of that dinner ok..)

Bad News when my father got home and say.. "eh, your grandma passed away already".. My dad samo phone my mom.. "Tonight we still go wedding dinner or not har?".. =.="" Of course the funeral lar, who still want to go to that wedding dinner..

Quite mad with it actually, staring at my new bought dress and tonight have to go funeral instead of a wedding dinner. haaaiiiiiyyyyyeeeerrrr~~~

No choice, still have to go to the funeral to respect the dead. but what my mind will be "Am Dam". Nah, that doesn't that I am not feeling sadness that my grandma passed away, first of all, she already 90+ no sickness. I don't think that a people live untill they can't move, they don't even care to live, and even they want to die, will still survive in this world. I think they are intend to leave this world if they wanted to. Furthermore, this is the end of the chinese year, she chose to leave in this end, sure she got her reason...

It is unlike my waipo (mother side grandma) that the she chose to live after new year sharp after 15th of the first month. And she got her reason too, that she wanted to leave after the new year.

There is no reason for me to be sad, she is too old to live.

Another stupid phone call.. for a job interview..

Yesterday another missed call that I knew it is from a music centre. It is from puchong band puteri. First time she called me, " Excuse me Miss Leo, would you like to come for an interview by tomorrow??"

me,"oh, may I know where is the music centre from? Cause you didn't mention it on the website..?"

she," oh, we are from bandar puteri puchong, can you come by tomorrow?

me, "at this moment I am not sure that I can come."

she, "You have to let me know by now, cause I have to call another person for the interview not only you.."

me,"then nevermind, just consider I reject it.."

Damn, she just spoke in a very damn lanci voice, and I can imagine how lanci is her face was acting, where I do not know is she the boss or only just a clerk.. Call lar call lar, call others lar. And at that moment, I really fade up and don't bother it, even I wanna find another music centre, I think there are a lot more in Bandar puteri puchong, Not only you ok~

One week later....

she called me yesterday, but I missed it. Then she did not give up by contacting me by SMSing me. she din type anything clearly but jus " Would you like to come for an interview by tomorrow for teaching on saturday (only on Saturday) and we offer good package for you.."

har??? What offer good package?? I didn't hear any music centre will offer any good package in teaching but I just hear it for students learning it????...

I just ignore, "Sorry, I'm not free on tomorrow that I am only free on Monday onwards.. and where is the place and who speaking??"

She replied, "I am from bandar puteri puchong... where u stay??"

Me (oh, you are the one that day you called me), "Sorry, I can make it to puteri puchong.. bla bla bla.."

I already hating this people by hearing that day she spoke with that lan-c voice, jus ignore her..

She did not give up by busying sms-ing me, that she can provide transport for me, I only have to teach on Saturday, samo offer don't know what good package, bla bla bla bla, and if I can't make it for an interview, you can call and make another appointment one. .. bla bla bla bla..

Very shitty this kind of principal that you already rejected me early, Am I god damn stupid for waiting for your calls, sure I gonna search for another new music centre and try my chance for it, who damn stupid only apply to you ONE centre, sure I gonna spread my certs out.

Somemore, that you only need me teach on Saturday, Then, how many students you give me then..? If you jus need me teach only on Saturday, I am sure lured to search for another part-time in another centre then, would you allow me to do that so?

Anyhow, I think I should try to go for and interview and see what she says... If yes, then yes, if no then No..

aaarrrggghhh~~ Have to decide it first, somemore I already not impressed with her lan-c lan-c attitude, meet this kind of person have to be more lan-c than her..

What come to my mind is, there is sure no one willing to work for her, then she only act so damn annoy to keep on calling me, somemore can provide transport.. Got such good job or not??~~!!

confusing. complicating. deciding. can't sleep...piano teaching freak.

today I jus went to an interview in Endah Parade. After the whole travel+vomit+faint in my papa's van. I reached there by very fortunate-finding-a-car park. It feels very weird that I went there with my father but not my mom. We used to shop very carzy with my mom and we are very KNOW-HOW the place is.. It is jus like our second home.. =P.

On the way to the centre.. suddenly the girl call me.. "Our principal need you bring 3 songs and play for her.." O.O i came out liao, how I gonna bring it?

seeing the principal.. She jus gave me a lecture in teaching in her centre, with all the regulations that employees have to fulfill and what a teacher should do. After it, she told me that she hires me if I able to fulfill all regulations. She tests my passion in teaching by giving me a class on Monday. If I can go, I can't stop by that. If I can't go, just bye bye.

Actually I also very pity those centre's principals, our teachers just have to teach.

First first, she is not intend and not impressed with my certs that i got. Yala, my grade oni got 5 and 8.. So?SO!! How ! Just tell me I'm in or out lar..!

Ok, the thing is not the qualification that the person has. I hope many employers do consider other facts too. Sometimes it might be very hard and difficult to find a music teacher, that not anyone can play with the skills. Sometimes it will be very easy that you are really into this field. It depends on the centre that famous or not.

the thing is.. The Rules..That really freakin me out. I can't change my time table simply but have to follow what the students do. It is 100% unlike my piano teacher. That she likes to change it from Monday to Sunday, but I jus plainly pity her that time she was just a student. =.=""



She even test my passion on Monday, by just teaching one student in a month. Consider averagely that you have 2-4 students in 2 months. Maybe you just get around RM100 per month. OMG how to survive with that?? but consider secondly the time, maybe you just have to teach for 2 hours in a day. Yeah. It is worth.. However, the regulations restrict me by not participate in any other centres besides working for them. Will it worth anyway?

Now, my strategy will be the long-run or the short-term. I do believe that I can make money in long-run. But in short-run maybe I just can get that RM30 per month. But I can't say that in future 3 months.

Other than that, I just have to look for another centre. Maybe it is only 2 students for me to teach, but if there is no-strict-rules to tie me up. Maybe I can be more freedom to teach happily, and maybe that will be my motivation too. But the job does not appear to me that kind of fast.



so there are two choices. I have to teach one year in commitment by follow all the rules such as wearing formal to classes, cannot change time simply, cannot participate in any company besides that. The rules will mess me up, in addition, I really do not know what my final year will going on. I know the rules stated is to build an image for the school, and to be honest, the school is quite famous to me, and the principal now considering hiring me, I have to curi-ketawa by the time..

Secondly will be, I go for another centre to give another try, I think I can able to find a very lease-lease-no-rules centre, at the same time that I can take care of my final freakin year. But it might be taking long time for me to search for it.. And it won't be a better location anyway. And I am now thinking of a new environment instead of the tied-up rules.

and there are pros cons in it. I can just teach in a lauyar centre but I got no rules with it that I can teach happily and have my freedom to study my final year. OR, i am now having a chance to teach in a famous school but I might be lose my freedom and I have to be commited.

Furthermore, the rate and commision for my income are all the same. And I have to correct that what other people told me that teaching piano can be a millionare.. "SIAPA TU?? WHO SAYS TEACHING PIANO CAN EARN MANY MUCHY MONEY ONE??""

at this moment, what I interested in is performing compare to teaching where I just need to get a licsence. I teach because of my mom was so annoying that forcing me to find a centre to teach teach teach and with that I can release some burden to my father. I have to correct it that "you think with that I can earn many money meh?>!" i not even effort to pay LRT and prepaid lar.!


Further consideration, discussion with my parents is needed.. to work.. or not to work"""

This is the time~ =P

foo~woo~

I have travelled to Endah Parade and Kuchai Lama to look for a new job. Hope good news will come. And I think I can handle 2 locations indeed. =P bleh. Wish me luck. I think I can have the jobs after the Chinese New Year, comes very soon........Looking for a job is not that easy, it is very unlike sales and promoters that I used to look for... Damn green in this field..

This is what my parents brought me when they travelled to China. I demanded for a "er-hu". That's what I want to learn as a chinese musical instrument.. And they brought me back this thing.. "hu-lu-si".. =.=""""~

My dad even told me .. "Er-hu is not worth to buy one, then I think I buy you this lar.. This very good one you know, I heard they play it is better than er-hu lor.."

What I asked for is "er-hu" OK! If you can't find any er-hu then better don't buy anything else lar..~ And samo forced me to play this for you. It is actually a "C" hu-lusi.. and the octaves are limited.. and it is only can play in one octave. It is very simple to play but it is quite similar to saxaphone..

Now, it is jus a decoration to my home.

After a long break, I think I gonna tidy up my closet. I turn my cupboard down and these are all my pants... and 70% of them not fit anymore after the operation. And 50% of them have sent for cutting and rest of them will be to other's generation. And what will suit me most currently will be all those mini-mini skirts... waha~

This is a chocolate... cute face-bee chocolate.. And.. it just tastes like chocolate..

What my favourite~ yummy. It is not tasted like normal chocolate, instead of the taste of tiramisu.. I like it because it tastes salty.. =P

Favourite..~

Finding jus a music teacher job ain't easy

It is damn difficult than what I think. But I really want a job. Barriers over round me. I know I just only have a 5th and 8th. But I really do interest in teaching. I tought students too, consider as experience. Give me a job, I jus want a job.

Besides after finished the entire studies, at this moment without enough fees for my diploma. I just want a related job in order, my piano playing will not end at this moment. At the same time of teaching, at least I can still continue to play with the students based on my own experience on playing classical to pop songs, concerto to sonatina to jazz.. and how to handle examinations.

That's how fun it will be..

of course, there is no free lunch, i need pay...

first call..> Actually, our centre need a Diploma's teacher. (How come? a not very famous centre also need a diploma????)

second call..> Oh, we can't answer you wor, you hav to come here yourself to fill the form first, and wait for the reply.. "thank you, bye bye"

Third call...> My principal say hor, you photostate your IC and cert hor.. then come here fill form.. "Ok ler, I'll come during weekends"

Fourth call..> Oh. we don't need any teachers now wor, leave your contact we will call you if we need teachers.."OK"

Really demotivating me to continue my call.. Flip through the entire yellow pages also no use.. (Oops.. yar.. hehe.. I use yellow pages to find music centres.. hehe..am I too brilliant??)

Obviously, all of the calls FAILED! I still have to wait wait wait for a right time to deal with this job.

Looking for a promoter job and part time sales is dmn easy (I can just walk by shops in midvalley and pyramid and i can get one.. erm.. maybe not only one..)

I just have to use one hour to call by looking at the newspaper I can get one..

But looking for a piano teacher job..you have to wait wait wait.. for their reply.. !!!!! If they no reply within three days. Means the job DIEs! still looking it.. sigh~

it really has to depend on luck.. Wish me luck in this beginning of new year. I really hope I can get one... By tomorrow....~~~

i'm back from hospitalisation~~~

1st day was stupid nervous, keep on thinking what if the doctor cut my stomach when i hadn't fallen asleep. I slept, quite deep during the operation.. Afta tat, heard my mom keep on calling my name.. My stomache getting more n more painful.. damn painfull...

"MOMMY~ MY STOMACH VERY PAIN!~!!!!!~~~!!!!!"

afta lying on bed in the room, can't get down, hanging, can't eat, can't drink.... can't go toilet.. those nurses kept on coming in for injection(pain-killer), cause I kept on complaining.. "SAKIT!! SAKIT!!"

2ND day: damn tired, my stomach get more pain pain pain... ~~~!!!! crying like hell !! Doctor came over and force me walk, cannot lie on bed.. those nurse came in..

"I gv you half n hour, afta that i wanna see you walking, not sleeping.. =( "

My stomach very pain!! HOW TO WALK ""!!! ... >.<~~""""

I just stand, and keep on tahan the pain, second day, still cannot eat and drink !! =(.. I have to walk with holding the stupid glucose-hang water.. >.< PAIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!~~~~

those nurse keep on asking... You release WInd already... ?? "NO".. =( "Then cannot eat" ..

>.< PPPAAAAIIIINNNN!!!!!!!!

nevermind, i even shit and xu xu, but no wind...

Next day, Doctor said: Ok lar, let her eat.. "HOORRRRAAAYYY!~~" I really cannot tahan for 2 days no food, no water. samo seeing my mom sucking those coconut drink and keropok. >.<"

3rd day better, at least can walk like an old lady (now too). And can eat, but still pain.. keep on mummering I can tahan.. I can tahan.. Cause the injection really made my butt hurt.. >.<"

4th day, wahaha... I can walk, sleep better, eat and drink, pain has been getting more lesser, but the stupid cough kill me many times.. HATE IT... >.<

I came home, miss my home... And now, I have to walk damn slow,cannot bend, stomach still damn pain, hate cough, can take shower, and my stomach has one BIG VERTICAL LINE..

haizz... Hope it will get better, no more cough....

(i have pressed many times of nursing call during in mid-nite, cause i cannot went to toilet my-self, samo that stupid cough kill me like hell)

Unknown feelings

I dreamt my grandma last night. She was lying on that lazy chair, laughing, talking, smiling with us. I was so happy to see her, again. She seldom appeared into my dream. Me and my cousin sister were talking to her, again. Yes, she died two years ago. I miss her so much, and we really do miss her too. How's her life? Fine? Suffer? OK? Well? Anyway, I still got no chance to ask her.. "Did you get my 3G handphone that I burn it for you during Ching-Ming? New model one?" I bet she doesn't know how to use it, it is too high tech..

Yup, wonder why was she lying on that chair, it was so real. She alive again? OMG. Can't believe it, it is so natural, the same house, same situation, drinking tea and sleeping, yawning. She died right?? Two years ago? What I felt was so real. And everytime she comes to my dream and what I think was just.."She alived again, maybe we rescue her during in the hospital or in the coffin." Unbelievable. Everything just real. I hope it is real too. May be we just can spend our time in my dream.

Every dream of her, I just having a very strong feelings that she comes back to us. That feeling is just too real, untill you believe that you are living in another new world, which belongs to you, own. Another new world which only happen in your dream. When you awake, you will cry and suffer for it. Maybe you will dream that Rain has become your boyfriend, it maybe will be so real, or blur... When you awake and realise it was just a dream. You got a realy harsh feel then...
Maybe you will dream that you bit Jay Chow in a Piano battle field. And you awake, it will just a dream.

Anyway? Will it become true? Maybe one day you gonna bit Jay Chow? May be one day Rain will become your boy? Maybe the girl that you dream to be with, and you guys will live happily forever? You definitely will hope it to become true? Is it same to if you dreamt "nightmares"? You will definitely hope never dreamt it before.

I got huge feelings in my every dream, may be it has an implication, knowing the furture, my fortune? I really got a strong feelings on my grandma, used to be with her telling jokes when she is still here, that the feelings on her is so strong untill you can't give it to others nor give only half? part of it.

I got a dream on a guy that I love for years. Everytimes he appeared in my dream, and I think may be it is not over, but when I awake, every thing will become to current situation. Why time can't stop? For years? huge feelings is still there, and now still remain. And I still believe, someday, he with me.. And this believe is so strong, till you going into another world .again. And yes, this world that belongs to the guy you love and you.

I live in my own world, since the guy left without a goodbye, he won't come back again. I know it won't be any miracle happen between us. I just hope to live in a different world, that belongs to "unbelievable" things, and I still believe it may true. ... .. "For years, I cried, I drunk, trying not to think of you, I sacrifice everything just to (dream to) be with you. I know this is a strong feelings on you, but I understand this is a wrong feelings on you too. I don't let you know in real, I want it in my fake world. Then it will be precious "

Desribe the guy that I dream? .. He is my inspiration in my life, just because of "gone". I know I have to be strong, that weakness can't kill me. Every success in my life, scoring beautiful results in my every piece of exam, complete my stages of music life, stepping on my stage, perform my life with full of confidence. And I still blur with all these. Why? ... "Just because of you, I work so hard, till mad. You are a great guy that I ever seen in my life, no one can compare to you, and I miss you. You have the passion that others don't have, you have your dream, and that influence me too. You are really amazing, the feelings started, just because of that."

I got huge, big thinking in my life, huge dream. What dream? Do you believe I do everything just to be with him. HUh.. I failed. I still minggling in "he and me" dream. I do believe, that feelings is in my heart, no one can share a part from it. For years (again), I know it is wrong, but it is right in my dream, come to my dream, and tell me it is real, this is the right path I want.... "All I think is only you, I'm pushing myself into this unbelievable world. This world will last forever no end. It is a paradise for my sacrification of my every success. Letting this world keeping my sacrifice and my secrets, and my feelings on every tears I give you in my every night. "

Sad? Yup, I really sad, I just don't wanna close my eyes, I am sad to see you, scared to hear from you, because you are too attracting, deep into my feelings. Feelings, when people tell you if you get hurt, just let the time heal it. huh? I really don't think it will. He hurts me everytime, but the feelings is still there, I know it will last forever. Untill I ask .."What if I decided not to marry any other guy except him? or not getting married forever har? " With that feelings, I have to be lonely in my entire life. I have planned, prepared for it...

I will try very hard to not letting anyone step into my world. I just wish to live like that forever, I have learnt many things in my life which without him. I will try everything to save the feelings on him, because I'm lie-ing to myself. I won't let anyone steal it, no one can come into my world, that belongs to him and mine. I will stop every single thoughts on others just because of him. Worth it? I know it is worth, it is a sacrficial. I will wait for it to come.... forever..... I believe that will be no waste of tears that I cried in every night.

I have to learn from mistakes. I learnt mistakes, I know it is a mistake, trying to do correction on it.. but it still appear "error"....

I know this is "wrong feelings" , I understand it... But I don't Realize...

still wait for it... don't know it will be how many 10 years....

About my little secret

Sorry of lack of updating, and no replying for comments. I really busy on my assignmenting. Next week still more 3000 words to go, frustrating now.

But after watching "my little black book", the story really grabs my attention. It really illustrated my life, erm.. can say.. Our life..~

Sometimes you plan what ever thing in your life, and u reach your goal in future. U have planned step by step, in what stages of ages, what you gonna do.. After SPM..> College.. >Work.. bla bla.. married..

However, when you to deep into this planning thing, actually will be a failure in our life. Can't it be more nature? Let it comes.. don't plan.. And what you plan to do, actually not satisfy u at all. Let it come in sudden and be a suprise in our life is better. When you planned, there might be some obstacle to face...

another thing is your boy's secret. Do you ever ask your boy about their ex? And when you research on it, the boy that you own, may be is not belong to you at all. Aha.. you have planned so well, .."get a rich, nice, great guy.." .. He may be loves you, but he is perhaps actually not yours. This will be, you got your boy, after a research , you found out that actually he is still loving his ex.

ANd yes.. game over, will you leave, remain??? This may be his secret, but after you found out, actually you are tearing each other face... Over..

And after you realise that actually what you have planned to do has over, why don't you just start it again. And you will find that actually, you will be more happier rather than sticking to a guy.. No more relationship, also can be a better life too...

Just like me.. Cut my hair.. and start a new day..

I am not stop blog GING...

really meaningless day to-day. Spent for entire whole day attending for boring classesFirst of all, sleeping, secondly, popeking. Till now, i'm still clueless for my ALL assignments. Niaseng, the most make-ing-us-frustrate, of course the class..politicking. Especially the OCPD.. really dono y yeefong got this name from. Anyway, maybe it is referring to..> SHIT~

First of all, if you notice or aware that your friend or friends (used to), started to ignore you and paranoid. Would you still pretend nothing happened and keep on laughing all the day? Yeah, there wil be such kind of human being now in the world. Like.. I no friend you anymore by dowan to go together with you and that shit will like, I AM STILL YOUR BEST FRIEND.. =P

Are you can be more sensitive of that? Yes, we are more to low-text culture and not straight forward, you can'y see my face expression mia kah? Be more sensitive lar.. Bodoh~~ I got face let you see one.. "I DOWAN FREN WITH YOU.. BLAH..SHIT~~"..

nExt thing today, I know we no need to sit for the exam for CRM. And that kind of group thing is really stupid. Research? We can do individually lar, and then at house we got computer, we can research ourself, no need to divide groups, and each group got their own chance to start to talk and gossip.

Ok lar.. it is really common in Malaysia's school I think. If you and your gang decided to form a group to have a like.. "Study Group", would you really think all of them will only STUDY?? I think erm.. Gossip group or shopping, movie fashion group is more suitable instead of "study group". Yup, we had divided each of us and started to like... Very tension on our research career... Waha.. I don't think this will gona work lor...

Another thing... Ok lar... I sorry that I never update my blog long time. I promising you guys that I will spend some time on the tAg meme... kekekeke...

gotta rush to the bus...
no time. bye...~

Moron Education ~~~

Sorry for not updating for yesterday, guess what?

My dad asked me to help him on the cushion of the furniture, and my stupid allergic nose keep on running when I kena those dust coming out from the cushion. And eventually getting a quite dizzy-sleepy illness, and moodless, even type a lot of wrong words during MSNing, *sigh

When I was having a great sleep at 9.oo pm, my mom suddenly called... *cellphone ringing

Shit ~~ I'm sleeping lar, why call now ~~~ !!!!

Mom : "Eh, I ask you something har, you answer me ah...very emergency... "

Me: "Ah (still sleeping mood) " (means yes)

Mom: "the question is hor ~~ 'what kind of food do these people eat?' "

Mom: "Japanese eat Sushi, ngam mou? "

Me: "ah... ~~" (yes)

Mom: "Malay eat Nasi lemak lar, then Indian eat Roti Canai, correct??"

Me: "Aha ~~" (yes)

Mom: "then Korean eat Seaweed correct? "

Me: "Also can ~~ (cause it doesn't mean only korean eat seaweed, Japanese also damn like it)"

Mom: "then KFC leh? what people eat KFC one? (kentucky Fried chicken)

I really thought my mom was telling a joke to me, or giving me some such idiot IQ test, or some kind of sabotage questions.. So, I should answer her smartly.

Me: "KFC comes from USA one mar, you can say, USA people eat it first lor.."

Mom: ''you sure or not...."

Me: "what I sure Or not? KFC is from USA one lar.. correct lar.."

Me: "what is the Question?" (what a silly-silly ques??")

Mom: "What kind of foods do these people eat?" (she repeated)

At this time I really thought it was a sabotage question, or some kind of trick testing... *blink blink

Mom: "er... nevermind nevermind.... then Mc Donald leh... what people eat Mc Donald one? "

Me: "Mc Donald also from USA one lor... " (it is really origined from there)

Mom: "har?? Also from USA one ah? Mc Donald wor???"

Me:" Yala ~!! whose question is this? who is doing this, why ask such questions geh?"

Mom: "No lar, this is MEI MEI's homework lar.. "(my 5 year-old cousin sis, still pursueing her kindergarten class)

Me: "where got such people ask question like this one geh?.. "

Mom: "eh.. then Thailand leh, oh~~ I know, the tong yam lor hor.. correct?" (heard she shouting "TONG YAM ! TONG YAM! to my cousin sis and my aunty.. )

Me: "ah~~"(yes)

Mom: "then, ah~~ only left the KFC and McDonald, Really USA people eat this food one ah, true ah??"

Me: "actually the whole world also can eat KFC and McDonald eventhough Tongyam and Sushi, it doesn't mean what kind of people eat what kind of food one mar... where got people ask such question one geh?, they should ask properly like, where is the food origin? who invented the food mar... "

Me: "Ask her teacher go back eat shit lar.."

Mom:"...." (heard she laughing and heard she talking to my cousin sis)

hahaha, Ah MEI MEI!!~~ Ah PEI PEI jie jie, jiao ni de lau shi hui qu YUK XI.

hahaha, MEI MEI !! PEI PEI ask your teacher go back eat shit .. hahahahaha..

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This is not the first time that her (cousin sis) homework comes out such stupid idiot question, sometimes I will just check her exercise books, and saw a lot of "do-not-make-sense" questions..

This is not the perfect way to let the kids know "what kind of people eat what kind of food", this will definitely misled the kids. For instance, who eat KFC? don't you think this question is ridiculous?, may be the answer will be,

... "I EAT KFC."...

It is just a moron edu, pity those kids...

Just some kind of Similarity...

Watched Jay Chou's directed movie "secret"?, yup, that's a nice nice movie isn't it, waha, I haven't watched it yet. But somehow, I found something interesting here. (Everytime I blog also start with something interesting =.="" ). I haven't watched it, but I did watch certain clips of it. And I do know what the secrets is/are.. *giggle...

Heard it is a improved movie by Jay Chou, he has improved his acting skill, a lot of audience got impressed by it. Especially the piano battle scene, VS yu hao... I got it too... LOVE IT!~ It is a romantic triplets style of nocturne and toOo many of chromatic skill, uncertain of keys, maybe lotsa lotsa changing of keys, or maybe could be more more flats and sharps there.. this is Chopin style.. ~~~ Lizt tooO.. !!~~, possible composer would be Chopin.. ~~ They are just implementing the romantic style..~~



Download midi scores..>
Battle 1 ~~
Battle 2 ~~

more..

But I found it is something similar with, "the legend of 1900", If you watched it, then you know what the hell this movie is talking about. It is all about the late romantic period and jazz, new morden time. A battle of, 1990 (his name) with the jazz intentor, Jelly Roll Morton . This story is all bout a ship, that one day, it should be exploded because of tOo old, but 1900 refuse to save his own life, and he decided to die with this ship. Cause, he never leave the ship before. Bron on the ship, Die on the Ship.

And some Immigrants from the latin Americca to US period.

So, it becomes a legend to the people now. Does this guy really exist? He really a damn good fucking pianist??


the crave




It is exactly the same.. Give me a fucking cigarrette~~~~ te! See what happened to that fucking ciggarette.~~ ^^



Are they same, all about piano battle... erm... when I first saw this Jay chou's piano battle clip, it brought me back to legend 1900 within a second.. for me..SAME!~~ story not same LAR..