Hi Hi Hi, everyone, I have long time no blog as my lazyness temptation everytime>s was tempting me.. luring like.. "Pei, pei, ... don't blog.."..

wAKAka...

I was having damn hectic exams...

I had done my first CGG assignment and hand in on 26 November 2008.

My Feng Shui thesis on 22 December 2008.

My CS gucci and LV on 30 December..

My CGG exam on 30 December..

My CS exam on 31 December..

And, Finally.. Happy New year everyone..

I am having a job recently which I found it during my studies.. Everyone was shocking.

"So fast ah?, take rest first lar.."

muahaha... It is definitely not my style either way but a little bit of regret that I could not enjoy it. Erm... I want to work as I don't want to stay at house and do nothing else. As usual, I will cross my leg switch on the Astro or chasing all TVBs drama that I couldn't watch it during my exam and assignment period, clicking my pet society everyday or go to forum to blow some water.. Basically that's my life..

No lar.. I don't go shopping so often, I don't like buy dresses or going or for luxurious coffee high tea .. or even some shopping spree during christmas.. >.<>

OKok... I gonna crap many things that happened recently that I couldn't blog it out during my business of assignments and exams.. Ok lar... erm... actually I was too busy with my pet society and some say geo-challenge.

You will so wonder that how could be the Cosplay fair in Malaysia. And it will be. See~ ~ My friend took some picture when he went to the Cosplay.

Many of them wanted to look so animated and " Kawai" look. Actually their look for me are mostly abnormal and weird = =.

This is costume which I found ok for me. The guy look gorgeous with his hair and the gal appeared adorable... ^ ^

However, how can the Cosplay included FOUR PORKCHOP???? !!!!!!!!!

OK lar~ ~ I am not criticising that their looks are like porkchop. But they just don't fit it.

Might it looks more like those Thai's AH-GUA, more than "kawai" costumed girls. The second one some more wear specs... = ="

I got no words but just to use pork chop for description.

Why my friend took picture of them? May be that's his taste. ^ ^

They are all so pork chop lor... May be good look, but not with that costume..

Horrible... O.O

Dear Diary

I have such long time that I did not own a diary. And, may be it was three months ago. I stopped. Then, it was four years ago. Blog is not a diary for me. I can't shout out anything and just ramble what did I do for the days, weeks or months. However, they are similar in sense of happyness, sorrowness, complaints, arguments and dislike.

I wanted my blog acts like a diary so much.

Today, what did I do?

I attend the Monday class regularly but the lecturer was in MC. I got no idea why was the news did not come early to me and I seemed like an idiot attending classes but actually there is no one to come. I think everyone was there as seem it was the last day. It is not an official class today but just a briefing to the fucking sucks field trip which consists of 8% of report, compulsary.

I called my father to bring home and before that we went for a check up for his lauzy van. And, that is the only transport currently which uses to bring me here and there.

Later I reached back just sitting infrom my computer and starting on my pet society gaming. Fun but bored. I was so scared that I couldn't get the jobs that I applied but yet I still got the response from the agency. I slept in the whole afternoon. Was, headache, so pain. bUt, still playing with my pet game.

Yes, I did re-cook the curry chicken. Basically I think my mom's cooking is definitely a failure. I is proven. It is not tasty at all. I got no point to starve, but, just, eat it.

Night now, I can't imagine that I might become a singing teacher one day. I am teaching a friend of mine to sing. He claims that he sings not good. Wonder, I can teach online with open up my piano tutorial and singing lesson.

I got no mood to sleep. Yet, I am still pending in my CS assignment.

Waiting someone who could tell me..

Who are the designers for LV and Gucci brand ???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know it Fails. Again.

You have no idea why am I typing this while I am having a huge heavy kind of feel on my head is aching. Shit, I even don't aware whether am I typing the right things. I got no enough sleep last night because of keep feeding my peipei pet in my facebook's pet society. You must will think to join me there.

I played fool by the problematic lecturer this morning who ensured that we must attend her class on Monday morning to that briefing but she threw us a plane. She is MC. I wonder think to get crazy and madness full of my head, rather, just don't think too much, one more month to go and I can fly away very far far far far far~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I did not receive any calls neither from the agency nor the Xerox company. I know it is a bad sign and it is now almost 1pm. I should give some confidence and pay some faith to myself. But, prediction is not that always correct. Obviously, I wanted to cry.

I can't get any posts or any jobs that I applied for. Playing fool around just to attend interviews for fun. But, not keen to hire. Where, don't just simply view jobstreet and see there are plenty of jobs that hire this and that posts. It is just a illusion, a bluff, a trick. They don't mean it. Just to ask you to attend interviews which cost time and money and energy.

I CAN'T GET ANY JOBS THAT I APPLIED

I hate that... GIVE me A JOB!!

T__________T

my secondary life~

Wonder where is your ugly white and light blue uniforms had gone. I dumped it after finished my SPM four years ago. I still remember I owned 3 uniforms and 1 baju kurung. I hated to school but probably only travel to tuition centre. That's my secondary school life. I don't study. Most probably had well commanded in only few subjects like maths, accounts, economics and add maths. Sometimes, science and sejarah (history). Definitely think moral is unnessasry, and wtf is this sujbect teaching.

We was so exciting when Yuka first came here and joined our class. take picture~ take picture~


from left: me, ah lian, ah leng, yuka, ah yoke, yu teng, and yee teng.. (all are super old names)

Everyone was definitely an ah lian.


This was when form 5. I don't know whether it was Hari Guru or whatever function. But, I remember that we were going to a trip after this.

I got a super long hair during my ah lian century. Yes, the left one...


wonder where was I looking for..



This was in Form 5. Took the photo just after I chopped my hair. Just wanted to keep a photo to get a sweet memoirs for the SPM. = =


From left: me, ah leng, wai ting, ah lian, yee teng, ah yoke, maggie~~ muakakaka~



We have so many "ah teng"s in my secondary school.

this was when the traditional dance. IT IS NOT A GHOST STORY SCENE~ = =

A harsh harsh~ hard hard life

My dad was keeping mention about the life is such as game. Yes, I know it. So, how to keep it well-managed to avoid game over will be another discussion.

Our life is not solely belongs to ourself, but, people and environment which surrounds us. Yes, the network. For example, what are the things or phenomenan which surrounds you now. Me? I am going to print my thesis soon, going to do the corporate strategy, read my exam topics, going to field trip and recently interviewed with few companies that I am looking for jobs.

However, your life is a game, you say. On the other hand, you might become a game for your life to. Or, you are one of the characters which God uses you to play his/her game. Vice Versa.

Honestly, my point in this post is to express my anxiety and worry in doing my job best. I have no idea which is this a right decision that I made. Yes, somehow, I wish to go Fuji Xerox and try the hell-working-post of logistic executive. Long working hours and worse than sweatshops. Stress and committed to time. Precise and correct analitical results to be produced. And, firstly, your work sure will from 7.30 till late 9pm for a fresh new person who just go in.

I don't like to do sales as I hate to hit target monthly and approach the market that stresses me. Why don't I stress myself by just producing reports. Muahaha...

I have no idea.

I went to several companies and few of them demand for second round interview if I am the one who being shortlisted. It wastes my time as well theirs.

Anxiety and Worry, am I sustainable and mantainable enough to work in a full pressures kind of working life. Or, I just have to sit there and sipping my Milo drink.

I still choose the hard one. No matter 7.30am to 9.00pm, pay me RM1800.

wHY?

that is my life..

it sounds stupid..

aiyo~ I dono I can tahan or Not lar~~~

Too Busy yet too Free

I am crying for too busy and too free. I am supposed to be happy to attend any interviews. !@$$$#^%^*#$!#!.

I am really feel siick of interviews and agencies' call. They actually don't read what are my qualifications and the notice period also my expected salary.

Yes, I admit that sometimes I might just simply click on their post to apply. They do not provide specific job locations, specific responsibilities and scopes for us to refer. All will feel no point but just click on it and try the luck. Just wait their responses and may be it might be a good company.

For instance, one agency called for whether I am looking a job in a banks. Definitely I asked what banks. "Top 4 local banks" she said. Since I got no interest they are not going to tell any of it and then keep it secret. AND, they did not read my resume that I only available after December and wtf was they need me to start immediately. The last word that I always say when answering this kind of phone will "BYE BYE". I have sicked of it..

I just want to complete the entire interviews within this week and I am not going to attend any interviews anymore. Wish I could find one after the new year.

SICK~ SICK~ SICK~

and now I do feel so heavy head. Headache of printing out their location maps and wonder where is the place. Feel like vomit. Sigh~.

Today consider a last day for the CGG dr Chan's class. I do not know that I should happy or sad. But, just acknowledge that I could be happy after all I consider to leave the school soon and might be, hopefully. Excitement where there is still a long way to go. I am totally blurred, stucked and sicked of searching jobs that is most suitable for myself. Hope I am not the one supposed to be picky, still I have to be fussy in choosing jobs. Certain, I do not want to end my entire life without a little bit of nothing.

Cry~~~~..

Have a shower and nice sleep.

=S

Happy holiday and merry Christmas everyone.